Today is another day down. It is already 22.02~

Lately, I've been really tortured by my thoughts. It's not getting any better and it's between a feeling of numbness and being painful. It is far from making me feel happy..and instead of just at night, I have these thoughts throughout the day.

They are comparable to a migraine headache. I have so many unanswered questions and feelings. I wish that...I could just shake her shoulders and scream at her. Do you see how hard this is for me? Do you not care? I'll never understand people and their insincerity. I run these scenarios and memories over and over again in my mind, like they make a difference...but I know they do not.

I just have to wait for more time to go by, make new memories to replace the old. It's just...I don't know why they have been attacking me lately.

On another note, I exercised today. It felt really nice and I cleaned quite a bit too. I have been in the mood to write something and I read something really good today. Should I write soon?



Tomorrow is a French exam and a written response after school.

がんばりますね~

♥ Sky of Love ♥




三浦くんはとてもかっこいいだよ~


Flowers for みか (Will my boyfriend bring me flowers some day?)


ひろは空が好きです。 (三浦くん)



Just a couple of screencaps from the movie. It was very sad.

It made me think a lot about fate and the fate of lovers. I think it's true that if you are meant to be together than you will overcome any obstacles.

三浦くん character was very different in this movie. I have seen him as たかぎくん in Bloody Monday 1 & 2, than as the goofy and noble こたろ in Samurai High School.

His acting is outstanding. When can we meet?
フ~フ

The second episode was very good! I am really excited for the third already~

Each character has their own issues to deal with and there is already a couple love triangles going on.


I feel so bad for Linda! He has to sleep with his boss to keep his job きもいだよ...

Then, パック is completely in love with はる but she doesn't even like him...only なかじ...

It's not that I don't feel bad for Peach, but, I think she creates her own problems.

There are so many romantic moments in this series. However, there is also something very realistic about it. It seems that, people are not perfect and relationships go bad very easily.

ジェジュン character is so shy and timid in this. It's cute and awkward looking at the same time.

Is anyone else watching this drama too?

I was wrong wrong wrong
Your words were so, so, so sweet that
I didn't realize you were playing me, me, me
with your words, words, words everyday

Baby do you really wanna hurt me?
Why are you doing this to me? why?

The stories regarding your other men
The stories regarding your behavior
I tried to ignore and pretended that I didn't hear but

The way you act when you are intoxicated
The way you smile at my friend
Change it Stop it
Even though I tell you many times

* You say I'm so sorry only for that moment
You say I will change only for that moment
My heart in pa, pa, pain it hurts but
I can't help but repeating

I was wrong wrong wrong
Your words were so, so, so sweet that
I didn't realize you were playing me, me, me
with your words, words, words everyday
Baby you breaking my heart
Baby you hurting my heart
I want to stop this
I know this is wrong
but I keep going back to you

Baby you and I
Like a bad popular song
I'm crying inside, but I force a smile like a clown
Baby you and I
Like a bad popular song
I'm crying inside

Rap:
My heart and body go astray
I am a such fool with no pride that
Although I was deceived by love I wipe my tears
and just go back to you knowing that this is wrong
The fact that I am a toy that you played and threw away
Makes my feeling unbearable
But Why! Why! Why! Why!
Today I am a clown who smiles in front of you again

*Credits to http://makikawaii-jklyrics.blogspot.com/2010/03/2am-i-did-it-wrong-lyrics-translation.html

Everything is changing. Reading through old blogs, it's amazing how many changes have happened in the past month. Has it been that long yet?

Reading through things...I can't say that my heart doesn't sink into my chest painfully. It does and I wonder how long it will hurt like this. I do feel optimistic though, I feel ready and happy but it's still tough.

My weekend was really nice.

On Friday my sister and best friend went to prom. I came home early from school and slept a lot. I took photos of them both in their dresses, they looked very cute.

I spent Friday night cleaning and listening to music. It was very productive and pleasant.

Saturday I had made plans with れん since her birthday is on Wednesday. We went to a Japanese steakhouse in the afternoon and shopped around a little bit. It was lots of fun, we just talked and window shopped.

That night I went over to her house and we were up until super late. We jogged, went swimming and then talked and looked at photos of TOP and 三浦くん. ♥

She really loves TOP and I adore 三浦くん. とてもかっこいいだよ♥
He's a brilliant actor too.

三浦くん is the boy in the photo here and as my banner. (Maybe not boy anymore, he just turned 20!)

On Sunday we hung out a lot too. We both dressed up and went to the mall. I had bought some fake nails to allow my own nails to grow, but they didn't last very long! (笑) They fell off when I washed my hands...

I enjoyed being out though. It was nice and we listened to a lot of great songs in the car. Again, we talked a lot, like we have been lately. It's nice though, because we are both going through similar changes, minus the bad break up on her part.

Last night I slept almost all night. Getting to bed was difficult. Sometimes I get hit with thoughts at night and honestly I just want them to leave me the hell alone. ほっといて！ However, I don't think my thoughts will listen sometimes.

Today I stayed home from school and cleaned. I finished all of my Chinese assignments too. I feel restless though still. I also feel a little lightheaded, but I think that is from feeling restless...maybe nervousness when I think of all the things to come in the next month.

This morning I also got a twitter, because my sister got one and I thought, why not? Maybe I will make some new friends~

Is anyone else keeping up with ジェジュンの新しいドラマ？I think I should maybe make a second post for it. It's so good! All of the characters are very well developed! The plot is very interesting too. I watched the second episode this morning.

Episode one and two are already out! I just finished watching the first episode and it was much better than I thought it would be.

The official website is really very cool too! Everyone should check it out.

If you click on the
"スペシャル" you are directed to a very cool mini city. You can click on the names of the characters and be directed to the photo gallery. You can also click on "ブログ" and be directed to the blog.



From there, there are plenty of really cute screen caps from the first episode.



ジェジュンはほんとうにかっこいいだよ！


So handsome ne?

The episode, on the surface, seemed happy and amusing. Underneath however, you can tell there is going to be a giant love triangle between the main characters. Each character has their own problem and hates being alone.

Poor ジェジュン, he really loves はる but she loves なかじま. なかじま seems to be in love with his ex-girlfriend still. They have matching tattoos even! (Revealed at the end of the episode)

I really can't wait to see how everything will play out.

I wouldn't mind a 恋人 like ジェジュン or even たまやまさん. かっこいいだよね!

ヾ(*￣￣￣￣▽￣￣￣￣*)ノこんばんわ♪

Already the weekend is over and Monday is practically over too.

I had a nice weekend though. My sister got her dress for prom and I got some new clothes myself.

The style is more mature and simple, I really like it. I spent a lot of time with my step mom this weekend too.

On Friday we all went out to eat. It's was really yummy. Friday night I crashed because I was so exhausted from school.

On Saturday I finished a lot of my Chinese studies. It is so much material! However, I actually enjoyed studying it. It's very relevant material. Later in the afternoon I went out with my step mother to a couple of stores and to a Botanical garden. We spoke a lot about things.

On Sunday the day went by quickly. We went to the mall to look at more dresses for my sister and I met someone that I will probably never see again.

I think I have already told this story many times now but it makes me feel good ♥

When we entered the mall I first was just looking at cell phones. I wanted to buy a new model and couldn't decide. My sister was busy looking at video games so I went into FYE.

When I entered, I immediately noticed this guy behind the counter. He looked Thai, possibly, very large almond eyes and straight choppy shoulder length hair.

I nodded my head at him and he did the same with a smile.

Now I felt slightly interested and began looking at headphones. He walked from away from the register a couple of times and looked at me. We nodded a couple of times at each other and I kept looking through the headphones.

When I couldn't stall any longer I left and went to my step mom. I was smiling stupidly. I told her about the guy and she looked into the store and was like "He is cute!"

She convinced me to go back into the store with her and we looked at headphones again. She really was interested in purchasing a pair. We looked at each other a couple more times and my step mom kept saying, "he's looking at you when you turn around."
まじで！？

She decided to buy something and struck up a conversation with him. She introduced and we talked about music, us three. He had a really good sense of humor. We left and I eventually came back with my sister fifteen minutes later. More glances and such but then we just left.

Will I ever see him again? Probably not (笑) He was very cute though and friendly.

Afterwards, my father took us home and we went out to eat.

Yesterday night I spent all night doing studies. I got a lot done! Today I was so exhausted though. I stayed for review and came home and crashed again.

Tonight I will probably do the same for a couple hours before I start homework and take a shower.

Today I did something too that was difficult. It was difficult but necessary. I don't have any regrets.

Lately I have been thinking a lot about the future. I really want to start my schooling and get prepared for Japan.

がんばりますね~!

On Thursday I had a class trip to EPCOT~

The bus ride was about two hours and we arrived at 10.00. We waited for about an hour to get our tickets.




At the very front of the entrance you can see the large globe. It was exciting to see because it meant we were close.



When we finally received our tickets, Christina, れん and I proceeded inside. Of course, I had put on so much sunblock before which they thought was excessive (笑)

The first thing we did was go to the "Cool Club"



Here you tried soda from all around the world. My favorite was the Japanese brand. It tasted like a very light carbonated orange juice. おいしかったです~

Next, we went shopping at the largest store in the front of the park.



There was so much Mickey Mouse!!


かわいいですよね~

We all wanted to buy everything of course.

At 11.00, the World Showcase was open so we went to the first country....

メキシコ


This was the appearance of the front of the ride. Very cool right?

On the inside, things were very cool too!



Next was....

Norway



There was a vikings ride which was pretty cool here.

The next country was then...

中国


すごいね

There was a lot to see in China. It was really elaborate.


In the culture exhibit...


Walking through the "city"

When you enter the main store..


I was really impressed...


Some scrolls from inside of the shop.

The next country...we kept walking..

Germany



It felt like being in a replicated city! It was really cool.

Next was..beautiful..

ITALY






I was really impressed at this renaissance Italy

After Italy...we continued walking to...

日本


This was the front side of the store.

This was the exit or entrance




I am the little person beside it ~



The front pagoda as you enter the section.


Me again and the Kyoto replica..


Inside of the store..just a small section. The store was huge!


There were real Koi in the front pond...very beautiful. I took many photos.

Reluctantly, we continued walking too...

Morocco




There was some really heavy music playing inside and it was so cool sounding. Sounded like being inside of a club with South Asian beats...

FRANCE




It was truly beautiful here. We thought about buying a Eiffel Tower key chain because of ジェジュン in the Bonjour Paris clips... (笑)

We both kept saying... Aux Champs-Elysées♪♪~

The pastries looked so good. I knew that we would be coming back.

By this time we were all very hungry. It was quite a problem to decide where to eat. We traveled all the way to Canada to get her food!! (笑)

Both れん and I wanted to eat in Japan so we waited. Everyone's energy was a little low by then. I kept making comments like "Oh wow, so full of energy!!" It made them both laugh but they probably thought I was silly (笑) or annoying!

After was...

UNITED KINGDOM




Very cool and very elaborate up close.

We then turned back to Japan to eat.



The food actually wasn't that great but we were both really hungry!

We now, had been through all of the countries (except Canada haha)

It was only 13.30 at this time !! We had until 21.00 for the fireworks!!

So...we walked around some more. We went through the shops some more and then rode on some rides.

Much later we went back to France for pastries.


Strawberry Tart

&


Croissant au jambon et fromage. I felt so out of place in France again. My French is so bad! There were so many people ordering in French!

Time seemed to go by quickly after that. All of us were exhausted.



The fireworks began at 21.00 and they were pretty impressive.

The bus was such a relief though!

The conclusion of the trip:

We all had a lot of fun. The fireworks had made me very thoughtful. I thought that one day I want to share the view with someone special someday. I often thought like this before...it hit me sort of painfully and I think I became quite quiet...ごめんなさい m(_._)m

The bus ride home I had my Ipod in and was very sleep. So did れん~

I ended up buying two things in Japan too.


It is supposed to bring Romance...do you think it will work?(笑)


たび~ Very pretty pattern.