RUSHrushRUSHrush
POSTED ON: 2009年4月28日火曜日 @ 15:17 | 0 comments
Very appropriate title today because that is what I feel like I am doing. Despite the fact that I am taking some time out to type up a blog. I just feel like I should though.
First and foremost, school has been killer. Just very difficult to keep up with work without getting up early or sacrificing sleep. I need to be better disciplined though too (^^;;)
I have had a lot of things on my mind though too-particularly Shou. Just very very thoughtful. Using my worry dolls a lot and just really hoping things are going well. Makes it seem dramatic huh? But, maybe not so much I am still worried as hell. You know? This blog will slowly learn..I am a very worrisome person. Somedays I think I just need to sit and clear my mind (just not think of anything)
But besides that---I just miss Shou like hell (laugh) A lot, a lot.
Today I signed up for my AP exams, (The 8th and 13th!) Gosh, they are so soon. I studied a lot of Japanese in my spare time too, which was very very nice. I haven't gotten a chance to look over my book in more then a week.
I learned some grammer, a few new words and just tried my best to make sentences. I have had such difficulty and now I feel more confident. I think, looking at it for the hundredth time now, it finally makes sense.
(Ex: I always make dinner with my mother and my husband)
[S O V]<----------- (Just to help remind me) Itsumo haha to shujin to bangohan o tsukurimasu
It was just simpler sentences like that I felt pretty good. I got some wrong and some right. I have to think about them but it is slowly getting easier.
There was some new vocabulary and always the important verbs; Kimasu, Kaerimasu and Ikimasu. I am still getting the hang of e and ni. They kind of confuse me.
Overall, I want to study some more tonight and in my free time tomorrow. I have a lot of studies tonight though, so I'm not sure. I don't want to not go to the gym but my studies are more important. Damn I am getting lazy...(declining in life)
But, my perfect schedule would be:
- Gym
- European Studies
- Math Studies
- Law Studies
- Japanese Studies
- Dinner
- Talk to Shou
- Studies (Just anything not completed really)
That foto of Jaejoong is pretty ne. I need to send Shou some new fotos too, because I found a few very handsome Yunho one's and beautiful Jae ones.葵
ラベル: goals, ジェジュン, 東方神起, 日本語
Lack of Concentration
POSTED ON: 2009年4月26日日曜日 @ 16:45 | 0 comments
Well, maybe not. I have to finish about four pages in my history study guide and of course they all require a lot of reading. The topic I am on now I really dislike to some extent.
Compare and contrast revolutions. (Revolutions sound fun right?)
Well yes! Three of them are but the second is so boring to read about.
- Glorious Revolution *Britain*
- Industrial Revolution I & II
- French Revolution
- Russian Revolution March & November of 1917
I bet it is obvious which revolution is so dull and annoying to read about. It's defenitely not the French Revolution... -.-' I disliked it the first time I had to read about it. When they cram it down your throats in American History. So just imagine rereading it on a larger scale.. In 1816 Lord Silvenstein invented the first do-it-yourself study guide..he then administered it to all the people of the newly independent America and all of the students were never plagued again by learning about the Industrial Revolution....
(haha) One can wish.
I see the overall significance of a this revolution, will both of them. Important to standard of living, as well as the upcomming wars in the 20th century (WWI & WWII). That part is interesting, but learning about all of the inventions that helped improve agriculture are all very repetetive. Or learning about partners of migration is not so fascinating either..I guess that last part depends.
Anyways, it must be done! I have about four pages too..but some of the others are just identification of economic theories and important literary works of the age. Let's just rush to those! Not all history is fun, but it's necessary for the overall picture. I feel myself staying up late tonight...it's painful...very painful...(haha)
No more procrastination now! Well, maybe for a minute while I get my coffee and to upload that foto of the handsome Changmin (he really is outgrowing his youthful..hm, unattractiveness? Just kidding x3) We always loved him (a little bit) (haha)- Aoi
ラベル: AP, Euro history, French Revolution, チャンミン, 学校, 東方神起, 勉強
Some Laughs
I have been meaning to post some of these. Not made by me but still extremely funny.
ラベル: funny, macro, 東方神起, 面白い
Listening to the Music
Just some small little thoughts about music recently I have been wanting to type.
First is just a little thought about the song, 9095. Everyone who has listened to this song has heard the reversed part at the end right? Well, yesterday I reversed it because I wanted to hear it. The unfortunate part is I can't speak Korean (laugh) but it was still really cool to hear. Supposedly, the rumor is that Jaejoong is saying something like:
"A person like you is unable to hear what I'm saying
(i.e. my story)"
おもしろいね.
Here is what it sounds like: (First forwards and then backwards. I suggest turning up the volume)
http://www.4shared.com/account/file/101733526/f0675f3d/07_9095.html (It is just the embedded player so no download is necessary)
So, I thought that was pretty cool.
My next music interested has been with 이준기. There was a lot of talk about releasing an album but plans kept on changing. Finally, he did and it is called, appropriately, J★Style.
Ironically, my favorite song is J Style on the album. The pv for J Style is slightly strange and seems very elaborate with a huge story behind it. Reminds me more of the fact that he is first and foremost an actor. However, the songs are all very catchy (mostly with that slow feel of slight R & B) and J style is more like club music.
I have also been very interested in this new song I downloaded. It is so catchy and just a fantastic song. The song I was listening to in the previous post! (laugh)
2PM- Again & Again
Apparently this is their comeback song as well.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w0LZd5rm3kE <-----------------
Their dancing isn't really impressive in this pv and they are not the most handsome men in the world but their voices as well as their singing style has such charisma.
葵
ラベル: 9095, J style, pv, イ・ジュンギ, ジェジュン, 韓国の音楽, 東方神起
Testing Day!
POSTED ON: 2009年4月25日土曜日 @ 7:27 | 0 comments
AP Language and Composition Mock Exam in a half an hour!
がんばれましょう!
Listening to Jun Ki's new album too. It is catchy and just very simple.
I really like the song J Style. The pv is a little strange but the song is so catchy.
ラベル: AP, J style, lee jun ki, 学校, 試験
Taking the Good with the Bad
POSTED ON: 2009年4月21日火曜日 @ 16:06 | 0 comments
It's very important you know? I really think this. Things will never remain good but they will never stay bad. Life has a way of balancing itself out in the end, when you look at the big picture [it might not be fair] but often it is balanced.
This statement can apply to a lot of things today and thoughts of the past week but without getting personal I'll apply it to today. I got up early, 4.00, after heading into bed at about 0.00. I finished my study guide up until the point I needed too and made some rice for breakfast.
We got our History grades and mine was terrible. We haven't had many assignments and the two over Spring Break (one which I had missed the day before) were pretty heavy. I didn't turn them in and my grade was the lowest I think I've ever had in my lifetime. What a nasty thing to see, so of course it made me very jumpy and nervous. Progress report grades go in next week and the tests right now and very difficult because it's the last quarter. There's no way I can improve my grade above a C by then and it really worried me.
I know it's stupid to dwell so much but I was really overwhelmed and disappointed. I have been working so hard on review and studying and reading the material that I thought that portion would have payed off. Anyways, the rest of the day wasn't so bad just very busy.
I didn't miss much work and completed almost all of it in my respective classes. I came out very lucky in math because the concepts I missed were easy and the assignment I made up in class. I didn't really have any other concerns though.
Lunch was really busy and advisory too because we were completing more of the study guide. I have to finish three long pages today for tomorrow. In English things went really smoothly.
After school I had a review session and we tested on material all the way up to the French Revolution [though not including it]. The questions were really tricky and the essay wasn't hard but I couldn't remember specifics. We are flying through so much material I am nervous I got my time periods mixed up. The question was something like: How did the Enlightened thinkers feel about organized religion?
Actually a fantastic and relatively easy question but my mind was blank when it came to specifics of thinkers. I instantly thought of Thomas Hobbes, John Locke, Blaise Pascal, Voltaire, Rousseau, and Immanuel Kant. But I couldn't remember how each felt specifically about religion and then I was thinking about the only true examples were Locke and Hobbes and they were pre Enlightenment [inspirations for the Enlightenment thinkers] so I felt stuck.
Anyways, besides that, the day was good and at the last minute I asked my teacher about that assignment.
"I missed the DBQ question over the break. Can I do something to improve my grade or should I just take it like a man?"
His policies lately have been very very very strict with late work but..
"No, don't worry Aoi I'll just exclude that assignment if you weren't here."
I felt so much better it's not even funny *laugh* Because it was worth twenty points which right now is large enough to "make or break" a grade, you know? But anyways...that happiness overshadows some of the bad today. I have a lot of work and I am pretty tired. I wont complain though, I am happy to be busy : D
Right now I am about to head to the gym. I'll bring my book and read some more history. I could definitely use it. Hmm...that's about it though. I will come back and take a quick shower than begin my studies. I want to send some pictures to Shou too though, just some amusing Jae ones.
ほんとうにきれい
葵
ラベル: AP, exercise, French Revolution, gym, ジェジュン, 学校, 東方神起, 勉強
Making Up
POSTED ON: 2009年4月20日月曜日 @ 14:40 | 0 comments
So today my schedule ended up quite a bit different than I expected.
I feel a little down about it but glad as well. My stomach was really upset this morning like I expected and it's been such a long time since. That really sucked, but my sleep was absolutely horrible anyways.
I got off the phone late last night, yes, but that wasn't the problem. I didn't mind it and Shou really needed to speak with me.
When I went to lay down I had really terrible dreams though I can't remember them now.
I woke up at 3.00 with terrible stomach pains as it always happens and spoke with my mom who just got back from work. I went back to bed and at 6.30 decided to stay home. I felt crappy and thankfully that only lasts for half the day (mostly). I thought about my work and what I might miss out on. Tomorrow I have AP reviews and I had finished the AP online exam yesterday (as posted). Hm..my other classes didn't bother me too much in thought and I have been working on what we would have done in class in AP Euro which was (get up to page 13) in our study guide. I am almost finished with that and have done a lot of the reading required so I feel pretty up to pace
Yet of course, I still feel guilty as hell. My conscious always
troubles me with that and always will. Regardless, I am pretty happy and just feel a little nauseous but that's the usual.
I have a few mini goals for today that aren't really stubborn at all.
- Finish my AP Euro review
- Study terms for AP English
- Organize bags
- Straighten up again (I guess I'm picky with a clean house)
- Go to the gym (I'll bring my history
burden book) - Begin writing/avatar/banner (something creative)
I think it will be nice if I finish all these things. I am going to probably go to the gym at 16.00 and continue studying until
then. Or it will be the opposite, I'll go to the gym now and then study when I return.
But! Besides all of that, isn't that a cute foto of Junsu? I thought so. His eyes are so sparkly and he seems so charismatic. He looks good in all white though, it's very suiting. I recently saw a foto of him and his brother Junho, it's still amazing how much they look alike (though people disagree) They really have such similiar features, particularly when Junsu goes for more masculine styles, though he's much sweeter looking than his brother.
Charismatic Junsu 
<---- かわいいおにぎり (ジュンスのスマイルみたい!) Wonder if I wrote that correctly..*laughs*
But the tiny おにぎり reminds me of Junsu's big smile.
葵
ラベル: Sick, ジュンス, 学校, 東方神起, 勉強
When to Begin Studies?
POSTED ON: 2009年4月19日日曜日 @ 15:14 | 1 comments
The answer is right now but I look at the pages and open the book with such a distressed expression (x__x') *laugh* You know? I have to read so much and half of it I am not even sure where to look. I am a little nervous I must admit and I feel about as large as a house, what an annoying feeling so I want to head down to the gym in an hour or so.I feel like my time has escaped me again. Go figure, it seems to slip away really easily. I had a good day though so far, stayed up late and got up early. Even so, the day has felt so short. I wish it was 1.00am again *sigh* But besides that, I got some leisurely activites done today.This morning my mom got me up early and we went to like..an open air market? Something similiar to that. There were people outside doing historical reinactments of a Scottish Regiment from the eighteenth century. I watched for the history lesson but most of it was just about the musket so I lost interest.Looking through the market my mom got books and plants while I found a cheap necklace I liked a lot.
We didn't stay for very long, we were just talking a lot about things. I came back home and have just been very thoughtful. Not about bad things but I need to get a lot done today and I am trying to think of how to divide my time. I really have been in the mood to write something as well but instead I was messing around with photoshop brushes...Today hasn't been very productive and the trash wont take itself out I guess (..because out of the three of us in the house I am the only one who ever does..) But, I'll stop typing soon and maybe I'll have to forfeit the gym to finish my studies. That is more important and I just need to get over this whole"pity-me-low-self-esteem" crap. I am not sure why, I just want it to go away. I think I haven't been working out very well and my body is feeling it, the only thing that worries me is if I am actually gaining a significant amount of weight. I don't know, I really don't.But besides that stupid stuff, I feel alright. I always have such high goals for myself on the weekend and I always end up spending it mostly with leisure. (I really need better discipline) I will feel better if I do some more responsible things, keep busy instead of play around on the computer.For the rest of the day and night I only have a few goals:- Finish my AP Euro homework (3/4hr.)
- Take the AP Mock Exam Questions (1hr.)
- Excercise? (1hr.)
- Clean up more (..I did earlier but..) (1 hr.)
Even with such a simple list the hours add up to potentially 7 hours. It is already 15.29 now!! I am so good with guessing time but I can never control it well enough (the irony *laugh*)
ラベル: exercise, goals, gym, jewlery, market, ユチョン, 東方神起
Coffee & Fanart
This is just a mini post after my previous, I think I will end up making a few of these this morning because instead of typing normally I just haven't typed at all. Yesterday a lot of fanart caught my attention when Wrenn was over.
But anyways, here are a few that caught my eye.
Maybe there is a noticeable pattern? These are all mostly ユンジェ fanarts but they are sweet. I think I'll put up a few links on the side of my page, like to this blog where the fanart is hosted. Many different types of styles and lots of things to look at.
1. More modern style and the pose is so sweet. The clothing style is comfortable and simple, just overal a cute drawing.
2. A contrast in style and heavier colors. I really liked the pose in this drawing, it's very sweet. The style is also a flash from the past, I really liked Yunho's longer hair (x__x')
3. Very cute chibi drawings, I'm not really sure how else to describe it because the english equivalent would sound silly. (little people drawings=wtf??) But anyways, that was a cute clip and the scene is sweet.
4. Very intense and pretty Jaejoong drawing. I really liked this one a lot, the clothing and winter scene is very nice.
Shou should really draw something for me! I am waiting patiently for the Yoochun sketch but she is so very good. I am anxious to see something new. If I could trade my talent of writing....*nah* *laugh* I enjoy writing too much but it would be cool to be able to draw though.
葵
ラベル: fanart, parsonlife, ユンジェ, 東方神起
Go For the Gold!
POSTED ON: 2009年4月18日土曜日 @ 15:24 | 0 comments
They are really amazing huh? I got such a kick out of this today. Not too much to write at the current moment but I want to write a lot later and add some photos, or just things on my mind.
I am about to go to the gym, I never got to work at my arms really when I went with Wrenn this morning. 35 minutes of cardio and it was nice but pretty easy.
-Aoi
ラベル: チャンミン, ユノ, 東方神起
Time Stops.
POSTED ON: 2009年4月16日木曜日 @ 15:48 | 0 comments
No actually it doesn't at all, unfortunately. (ha) At the moment though it feels a little less busy so in a way it kind of feels like time has stopped a little.
I am about to head to the gym and am just very thoughtful. Nothing particular, just thoughtful. I am so happy to go though because my stomach has felt so uneasy lately. I really need to go and I certainly have the motivation. It will be day 1 of my sort of improved excercise plan, thanks ironically to my girlfriend ♥ But anyways, I am about to go do that.
No homework that isn't voluntary tonight but I will still study regardless if I don't fall asleep which I will really try not to do.
I had that test today on everything up to the Scientific Revolution in Euro. I actually think I did pretty good but it was very difficult. The questions were tricky because multiple answers seemed right. A lot of people bombed it.
I feel so tired right now though, very exhuasted. I know that once I go I will feel better (more awake and less guilty). I think I'll bring my history book to read a little because it passes the time.
Hmm..nothing new is really going on. I have some homework to do over the weekend but mostly its just studies. I need to crack down more on my AP Language terms. I am very nervous about them and even now not so much worried about the essays. I think that is dangerous thinking but that's alright for now I am tired!
This morning I got up late and had finished work. Oddly enough I felt even more tired when I got up later. I had circles under my eyes today for the first time in awhile. It was really strange and I had to run to school to make the second period bell. (That was my own fault though..) I had to look like an idiot running up the sidewalk, made my chest hurt a little because it was cold but I think mostly because I never run. It was strange...
I digress...(like always) I'll type something more interesting and lively tonight (or I'll try too). Something other than school. But it's worth noting that I miss my girlfriend a lot recently and she's been on my mind. A lot, a lot.葵
ラベル: exercise, gym, school, studies, 学校, 勉強
Time Just Slips Away
POSTED ON: 2009年4月15日水曜日 @ 23:19 | 0 comments
Where does the time go? I really feel like sometimes it just slips out of my hands before I even have time to do enough! It is so troublesome, really. I wish that I could live on no sleep and just be productive all the time. I do enjoy sleep though...but it seems like a shame to be missing what is going on in the world while sleeping. There are always new things happening..
But, to continue on to what I wanted to finish a few days ago (^^;;)April 15- AP Review Session European History (Euro Hist.) (Lunch/Advisary)
April 15- AP Review Session English Language and Composition (EL&C) Afterschool (14.00-16.05)
April 16- Test Review on Everything up to Scientific Revolution ( Euro Hist.)April 17- Group Meeting in AdvisaryApril 20- AP Mock Exam Questions Due (EL&C)April 21- AP Review Session Euro Hist. (Lunch/Advisary)
April 21- AP Review Session Euro Hist. Afterschool [Test on Everything up to and including French Revolution] (1HR)April 23- AP Review Session EL&CApril 24- AP Review Session Euro Hist. (Lunch/Advisary)April 24- AP Review Session Euro Hist. Afterschool April 25- AP EL&C Mock Exam (7.30am-?)April 27- AP Review Session Euro Hist. Voluntary Afterschool ReviewApril 29- Mock Exam AP Euro Hist. (3HRS. Afterschool)April 30- AP Review Session AP Euro Hist. (Lunch/Adv.)
April 30- AP Review Session AP Euro Hist. (Afterschool)May 1- AP Review Session AP Euro Hist. (Lunch/Adv.)
May 1- AP Review Session AP Euro Hist. (Afterschool)
May 3- Artist Workshop Photography Final Exam (14.00-16.00)
May 4- Ap Review Session Euro Hist. (Lunch/Adv.)
May 5- Ap Review Session Euro Hist.
May 6- AP Review Session Euro Hist. (Lunch/Adv.)
May 7- Ap Review Session Euro Hist. (Lunch/Adv.)
May 8- AP European History EXAM ☆
May 13- AP English Language and Composition EXAM☆
May 21/22- Love♥* As the days go by this color marks the completion of the events/studiesMy growing list of dates! Wow, it seems like a lot to type up but of course a lot of it is just reminders to attend review sessions. I have not added my AP Language and Composition Review Session dates because they are always up in the air. I actually think that one conflicts at the moment too..I have to sort that out tomorrow! The tests are fast approaching right? It is kind of troublesome and it makes me think I should be devoting myself to studies at this time (haha) But, I'll sort of skate around it and say this is an educational way to be organized while listening to 東方神起- Stand Up. I think the most important date is the last one (ha) Yes! I am so excited, I really hope that I get to see her then. I am really looking forward to it, I miss her so much damn it ><
ラベル: review, schedule, school, studies, 学校, 勉強
フィーバーうっき★!
POSTED ON: 2009年4月14日火曜日 @ 23:02 | 0 comments
The title of this blog is simple and sweet but also the name of my new monkey widget on the side of the blog named "フィーバーうっき★" or "Gloomy Fever." It's cute huh? I like monkeys a lot so it seems very suiting.
http://www.blogpartsfactory.com/ <------------- I just wanted to type up a very short blog for it because I will post a new post about all my new dates and deadlines before I go to sleep tonight. For now I have a lot of homework to do for history. One day I'll have to take a foto of this massive packet! It is very intense but I feel strongly that I will be prepared for the exam. I have some other things to discuss too with goals and such but I'll type them later on tonight (tomorrow..ehh lol) when I am finished. Oh and I have very grateful again or even blessed really. Somethings go wrong but there is always a balance of good. A beautiful line that I read just awhile ago
"..you laughed a lot earlier today so you had to cry tonight." This is so very true. A good balance in the universe and of course Karma too.
I am rambling but that reminds me of another phrase that I can't find even with a lot of searching.
"Pain is Inevitable, Suffering is Optional." Very true, I really like this phrase a lot.葵
ラベル: ブログパーツ, 猿
Day 2; [9095]
No particular reasons behind the title except that it is
Tuesday and I am listening to 東方神起
9095.
I also want to post a few days before I head off to school. I promised to kind of do it last night but my computer was acting really strangely. To be honest it sort of worries me because I have never had problems with it when it came to watching videos on youtube but last night it gave me error messages (closing the whole internet).
Worries me, but the CPU usage doesn't seem out of control or anything so I guess I can rest easy for now.
I got up a little late but not really that bad. I'll probably leave a little later than usual but every once in awhile that is okay I think. It is nice to rest a little in the morning. Tomorrow I will get up earlier for sure.
So, to the dates, so I can atleast type those out:
- April 15th- AP REVIEW ENGLISH (14.00-?)
- April 25th- Mock AP EXAM ENGLISH (7.30am)
- May 3- Artist Workshop Photography (14.00-16.00)
- May 8th- AP European Exam
- May 13th- AP English Exam
ラベル: school, studies, 勉強
Back to Work!
POSTED ON: 2009年4月13日月曜日 @ 6:47 | 0 comments
So, I am getting ready to leave for school within the next few minutes. That kind of sucks a little but at the same time I am really happy to get back into a healthy routine (laugh) I feel much better when I have a bit of structure.
I think that I am relatively indescisive but sometimes having too much time is a bad thing, particularly after working very hard or making a lot of decisions. It tends to bring a spell off laziness known as the days off from Spring Break. I think today will be a little tough because I didn't get all my work done last night but that's alright. I walked myself into it and I can always fix it. I'll have too, of course.
So, I need to schedule a meeting with my counselor and finish my history work. I think I'll post my schedule to keep organized today after school. My testings and such. I have a planner which is good but I might try to find a good virtual calender because I am on the computer a lot too. Sadly enough, I think that Human Potential course did me a little good with goals. I find myself making them a lot more (...finishing them is another story! ha)
But here are some small short terms I have been kind of running through mind, while I have a few minutes left:
1. Keep up my excercise (atleast every other day..) but with more intensity.
- Level: Achievable
2. Study Japanese atleast thirty minutes a day
- Level: Possible (..but the next two months will be very packed with school studies)
3. Study atleast an hour a night
- Level: Achievable
4. Finish ALL work
- Level: Achievable
5. No eating after 20.00
- Level: Achievable (..but I am always up very very late with eyes bigger than my stomach x3)
6. Control my portions after school
- Level: Achievable (..but it is a whole change in my eating pattern but for the better)
Those are some of the things I have been thinking about without really mentioning my school/career goals. I think, like I said, I might type that a little later on tonight. It is time to work hard and leave for school. I can only hope that things work out today. I need lots of luck and positive thought. If somethings go wrong than there will be good to balance it out. Vice versa as well..
葵
ラベル: goals, school, 勉強
Smiling Eyes
POSTED ON: 2009年4月12日日曜日 @ 14:41 | 0 comments
I just wanted to add this foto of Junsu, well rather screencaps. He looked so cute ne.
I really like his eyes, they always look like they're smiling. He has very pretty shape to them.
葵
ラベル: ジュンス, 東方神起
A week With No School
POSTED ON: 2009年4月11日土曜日 @ 17:19 | 1 comments
So, my second post but first official one in my mind. I'm just having some dinner now and looking at my school work thinking I'd like to kick myself for not beginning more of it early (^^;)I have been on spring break now for over a week and it is already Saturday. Sundays always feel depressing in the sense that Monday will follow and Mondays are always slow. I think I'd rather trade Tuesdays for Mondays or just rename them to "everyone suffers" day. Very simple ne.But anyways, I feel pretty good regardless. About two weeks ago or even shorter than that really, I was thinking that my Spring Break was going to be spent much differently. For the past two years I have gone to visit Shou but things didn't work out this time. I was very bummed but expected it so in the end it wasn't such a shock. Now we're trying to make a date work inbetween now and summer (because I want to be there during summer for Shou's birthday). Money screams at me both ways this time it seems (ha)I know it will work out though, it always does so I am trying not to worry more than I usually do. My head might explode if so! I digressed but anyways, I have this European History work to do and some study aids to look through. My Japanese is something else I want to continue working on because I finally feel like I am improving. I have been trying hard to work on my hirigana and Katakana. I really need to learn and in the long run I will know it will be the best.I need to push Shou a little more as well, both of us need to help each other. I think my next language aim is to improve my Spanish and learn some Korean. I don't think my pronounciation in Korean is to bad but I really don't know the language (even the basics yet). I'm determined so hopefully when I get some free time from school and these upcomming exams (aish! 3 weeks away) I can concentrate more on that.Today went well though but I am tired and shouldn't be. All day I have had this mental image of myself completing a lot of work but I haven't yet. I like this image, I want it to happen soon (hah) So hopefully after I post this. I excercised this morning but not appropriately. I guess I am still pleased though. I went for an hour and a half but my cardio was half hearted while I read through my Japanese study aid. I excercised my legs and arms real well though but I feel like I should have been sweating more. I guess everyday I can't have a very hard work out but I hope to not become lazy...it's so easy.I think tonight I will study, have some coffee and just think a bit. I want to write something new (I type fanfics) but I'm not sure yet on a single idea. I'll figure it out soon, but anyways, I think I will sleep well too. I still feel sleepy and I can smell the black chamomile spray by my bed (lovely little mist to "help sleep") Not sure how well it works but I am always so dead by the time I crawl into bed that I can't complain !Well, that's really it. Maybe later on I'll babble a little about 東方神起..or post some fotos or something.葵
ラベル: school, studies, 学校, 勉強
Introduction
POSTED ON: @ 17:07 | 0 comments
So, after thinking for a few minutes on exactly how I was going to do this..I decided in the end that my post's title would just be called, very originally might I add, "Introduction"
To be honest I am not really sure how long I will keep up writing in this blog but it is rather cute. I always have things I can ramble about though, so maybe this will last longer than I suspect.
I don't really intend to make friends through blogger or anything of the sort because I have never been very good with blogs. I hope to get atleast a few good posts and some memorable writings for myself.
I figure this blog will most likely be dedicated to the variety of topics that are floating in my mind:
The constant: 東方神起, My Love, School, Food
and the variety: Friends, Family, Personal, Career, etc...
I think that after typing in this blog for more than a week I will realize how boring I am (unless I constantly am posting photos of 東方神起 or talking about my Love) than maybe not so much.
Oh and I guess if anyone did ever stunble upon this it might be helpful to know that my name is 葵 (Aoi)
ラベル: introduction
♥ back up ♥ / Newer →
So, you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
You learn that you really can endure,
that you really are strong, and you really do have worth.
You learn and learn, with every goodbye you learn.
Scream your name
Your thoughts, and your cries. Be nice.
Tagboard here, I like shoutmix.com. It can be 100% in width, the height you can put it as whatever. Best if the style is "wide"
RUSHrushRUSHrush
POSTED ON: 2009年4月28日火曜日 @ 15:17 | 0 comments
Very appropriate title today because that is what I feel like I am doing. Despite the fact that I am taking some time out to type up a blog. I just feel like I should though.
First and foremost, school has been killer. Just very difficult to keep up with work without getting up early or sacrificing sleep. I need to be better disciplined though too (^^;;)
I have had a lot of things on my mind though too-particularly Shou. Just very very thoughtful. Using my worry dolls a lot and just really hoping things are going well. Makes it seem dramatic huh? But, maybe not so much I am still worried as hell. You know? This blog will slowly learn..I am a very worrisome person. Somedays I think I just need to sit and clear my mind (just not think of anything)
But besides that---I just miss Shou like hell (laugh) A lot, a lot.
Today I signed up for my AP exams, (The 8th and 13th!) Gosh, they are so soon. I studied a lot of Japanese in my spare time too, which was very very nice. I haven't gotten a chance to look over my book in more then a week.
I learned some grammer, a few new words and just tried my best to make sentences. I have had such difficulty and now I feel more confident. I think, looking at it for the hundredth time now, it finally makes sense.
(Ex: I always make dinner with my mother and my husband)
[S O V]<----------- (Just to help remind me) Itsumo haha to shujin to bangohan o tsukurimasu
It was just simpler sentences like that I felt pretty good. I got some wrong and some right. I have to think about them but it is slowly getting easier.
There was some new vocabulary and always the important verbs; Kimasu, Kaerimasu and Ikimasu. I am still getting the hang of e and ni. They kind of confuse me.
Overall, I want to study some more tonight and in my free time tomorrow. I have a lot of studies tonight though, so I'm not sure. I don't want to not go to the gym but my studies are more important. Damn I am getting lazy...(declining in life)
But, my perfect schedule would be:
- Gym
- European Studies
- Math Studies
- Law Studies
- Japanese Studies
- Dinner
- Talk to Shou
- Studies (Just anything not completed really)
That foto of Jaejoong is pretty ne. I need to send Shou some new fotos too, because I found a few very handsome Yunho one's and beautiful Jae ones.葵
ラベル: goals, ジェジュン, 東方神起, 日本語
Lack of Concentration
POSTED ON: 2009年4月26日日曜日 @ 16:45 | 0 comments
Well, maybe not. I have to finish about four pages in my history study guide and of course they all require a lot of reading. The topic I am on now I really dislike to some extent.
Compare and contrast revolutions. (Revolutions sound fun right?)
Well yes! Three of them are but the second is so boring to read about.
- Glorious Revolution *Britain*
- Industrial Revolution I & II
- French Revolution
- Russian Revolution March & November of 1917
I bet it is obvious which revolution is so dull and annoying to read about. It's defenitely not the French Revolution... -.-' I disliked it the first time I had to read about it. When they cram it down your throats in American History. So just imagine rereading it on a larger scale.. In 1816 Lord Silvenstein invented the first do-it-yourself study guide..he then administered it to all the people of the newly independent America and all of the students were never plagued again by learning about the Industrial Revolution....
(haha) One can wish.
I see the overall significance of a this revolution, will both of them. Important to standard of living, as well as the upcomming wars in the 20th century (WWI & WWII). That part is interesting, but learning about all of the inventions that helped improve agriculture are all very repetetive. Or learning about partners of migration is not so fascinating either..I guess that last part depends.
Anyways, it must be done! I have about four pages too..but some of the others are just identification of economic theories and important literary works of the age. Let's just rush to those! Not all history is fun, but it's necessary for the overall picture. I feel myself staying up late tonight...it's painful...very painful...(haha)
No more procrastination now! Well, maybe for a minute while I get my coffee and to upload that foto of the handsome Changmin (he really is outgrowing his youthful..hm, unattractiveness? Just kidding x3) We always loved him (a little bit) (haha)- Aoi
ラベル: AP, Euro history, French Revolution, チャンミン, 学校, 東方神起, 勉強
Some Laughs
I have been meaning to post some of these. Not made by me but still extremely funny.
ラベル: funny, macro, 東方神起, 面白い
Listening to the Music
Just some small little thoughts about music recently I have been wanting to type.
First is just a little thought about the song, 9095. Everyone who has listened to this song has heard the reversed part at the end right? Well, yesterday I reversed it because I wanted to hear it. The unfortunate part is I can't speak Korean (laugh) but it was still really cool to hear. Supposedly, the rumor is that Jaejoong is saying something like:
"A person like you is unable to hear what I'm saying
(i.e. my story)"
おもしろいね.
Here is what it sounds like: (First forwards and then backwards. I suggest turning up the volume)
http://www.4shared.com/account/file/101733526/f0675f3d/07_9095.html (It is just the embedded player so no download is necessary)
So, I thought that was pretty cool.
My next music interested has been with 이준기. There was a lot of talk about releasing an album but plans kept on changing. Finally, he did and it is called, appropriately, J★Style.
Ironically, my favorite song is J Style on the album. The pv for J Style is slightly strange and seems very elaborate with a huge story behind it. Reminds me more of the fact that he is first and foremost an actor. However, the songs are all very catchy (mostly with that slow feel of slight R & B) and J style is more like club music.
I have also been very interested in this new song I downloaded. It is so catchy and just a fantastic song. The song I was listening to in the previous post! (laugh)
2PM- Again & Again
Apparently this is their comeback song as well.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w0LZd5rm3kE <-----------------
Their dancing isn't really impressive in this pv and they are not the most handsome men in the world but their voices as well as their singing style has such charisma.
葵
ラベル: 9095, J style, pv, イ・ジュンギ, ジェジュン, 韓国の音楽, 東方神起
Testing Day!
POSTED ON: 2009年4月25日土曜日 @ 7:27 | 0 comments
AP Language and Composition Mock Exam in a half an hour!
がんばれましょう!
Listening to Jun Ki's new album too. It is catchy and just very simple.
I really like the song J Style. The pv is a little strange but the song is so catchy.
ラベル: AP, J style, lee jun ki, 学校, 試験
Taking the Good with the Bad
POSTED ON: 2009年4月21日火曜日 @ 16:06 | 0 comments
It's very important you know? I really think this. Things will never remain good but they will never stay bad. Life has a way of balancing itself out in the end, when you look at the big picture [it might not be fair] but often it is balanced.
This statement can apply to a lot of things today and thoughts of the past week but without getting personal I'll apply it to today. I got up early, 4.00, after heading into bed at about 0.00. I finished my study guide up until the point I needed too and made some rice for breakfast.
We got our History grades and mine was terrible. We haven't had many assignments and the two over Spring Break (one which I had missed the day before) were pretty heavy. I didn't turn them in and my grade was the lowest I think I've ever had in my lifetime. What a nasty thing to see, so of course it made me very jumpy and nervous. Progress report grades go in next week and the tests right now and very difficult because it's the last quarter. There's no way I can improve my grade above a C by then and it really worried me.
I know it's stupid to dwell so much but I was really overwhelmed and disappointed. I have been working so hard on review and studying and reading the material that I thought that portion would have payed off. Anyways, the rest of the day wasn't so bad just very busy.
I didn't miss much work and completed almost all of it in my respective classes. I came out very lucky in math because the concepts I missed were easy and the assignment I made up in class. I didn't really have any other concerns though.
Lunch was really busy and advisory too because we were completing more of the study guide. I have to finish three long pages today for tomorrow. In English things went really smoothly.
After school I had a review session and we tested on material all the way up to the French Revolution [though not including it]. The questions were really tricky and the essay wasn't hard but I couldn't remember specifics. We are flying through so much material I am nervous I got my time periods mixed up. The question was something like: How did the Enlightened thinkers feel about organized religion?
Actually a fantastic and relatively easy question but my mind was blank when it came to specifics of thinkers. I instantly thought of Thomas Hobbes, John Locke, Blaise Pascal, Voltaire, Rousseau, and Immanuel Kant. But I couldn't remember how each felt specifically about religion and then I was thinking about the only true examples were Locke and Hobbes and they were pre Enlightenment [inspirations for the Enlightenment thinkers] so I felt stuck.
Anyways, besides that, the day was good and at the last minute I asked my teacher about that assignment.
"I missed the DBQ question over the break. Can I do something to improve my grade or should I just take it like a man?"
His policies lately have been very very very strict with late work but..
"No, don't worry Aoi I'll just exclude that assignment if you weren't here."
I felt so much better it's not even funny *laugh* Because it was worth twenty points which right now is large enough to "make or break" a grade, you know? But anyways...that happiness overshadows some of the bad today. I have a lot of work and I am pretty tired. I wont complain though, I am happy to be busy : D
Right now I am about to head to the gym. I'll bring my book and read some more history. I could definitely use it. Hmm...that's about it though. I will come back and take a quick shower than begin my studies. I want to send some pictures to Shou too though, just some amusing Jae ones.
ほんとうにきれい
葵
ラベル: AP, exercise, French Revolution, gym, ジェジュン, 学校, 東方神起, 勉強
Making Up
POSTED ON: 2009年4月20日月曜日 @ 14:40 | 0 comments
So today my schedule ended up quite a bit different than I expected.
I feel a little down about it but glad as well. My stomach was really upset this morning like I expected and it's been such a long time since. That really sucked, but my sleep was absolutely horrible anyways.
I got off the phone late last night, yes, but that wasn't the problem. I didn't mind it and Shou really needed to speak with me.
When I went to lay down I had really terrible dreams though I can't remember them now.
I woke up at 3.00 with terrible stomach pains as it always happens and spoke with my mom who just got back from work. I went back to bed and at 6.30 decided to stay home. I felt crappy and thankfully that only lasts for half the day (mostly). I thought about my work and what I might miss out on. Tomorrow I have AP reviews and I had finished the AP online exam yesterday (as posted). Hm..my other classes didn't bother me too much in thought and I have been working on what we would have done in class in AP Euro which was (get up to page 13) in our study guide. I am almost finished with that and have done a lot of the reading required so I feel pretty up to pace
Yet of course, I still feel guilty as hell. My conscious always
troubles me with that and always will. Regardless, I am pretty happy and just feel a little nauseous but that's the usual.
I have a few mini goals for today that aren't really stubborn at all.
- Finish my AP Euro review
- Study terms for AP English
- Organize bags
- Straighten up again (I guess I'm picky with a clean house)
- Go to the gym (I'll bring my history
burden book) - Begin writing/avatar/banner (something creative)
I think it will be nice if I finish all these things. I am going to probably go to the gym at 16.00 and continue studying until
then. Or it will be the opposite, I'll go to the gym now and then study when I return.
But! Besides all of that, isn't that a cute foto of Junsu? I thought so. His eyes are so sparkly and he seems so charismatic. He looks good in all white though, it's very suiting. I recently saw a foto of him and his brother Junho, it's still amazing how much they look alike (though people disagree) They really have such similiar features, particularly when Junsu goes for more masculine styles, though he's much sweeter looking than his brother.Charismatic Junsu <---- かわいいおにぎり (ジュンスのスマイルみたい!) Wonder if I wrote that correctly..*laughs*
But the tiny おにぎり reminds me of Junsu's big smile.
葵
ラベル: Sick, ジュンス, 学校, 東方神起, 勉強
When to Begin Studies?
POSTED ON: 2009年4月19日日曜日 @ 15:14 | 1 comments
The answer is right now but I look at the pages and open the book with such a distressed expression (x__x') *laugh* You know? I have to read so much and half of it I am not even sure where to look. I am a little nervous I must admit and I feel about as large as a house, what an annoying feeling so I want to head down to the gym in an hour or so.I feel like my time has escaped me again. Go figure, it seems to slip away really easily. I had a good day though so far, stayed up late and got up early. Even so, the day has felt so short. I wish it was 1.00am again *sigh* But besides that, I got some leisurely activites done today.This morning my mom got me up early and we went to like..an open air market? Something similiar to that. There were people outside doing historical reinactments of a Scottish Regiment from the eighteenth century. I watched for the history lesson but most of it was just about the musket so I lost interest.Looking through the market my mom got books and plants while I found a cheap necklace I liked a lot.
We didn't stay for very long, we were just talking a lot about things. I came back home and have just been very thoughtful. Not about bad things but I need to get a lot done today and I am trying to think of how to divide my time. I really have been in the mood to write something as well but instead I was messing around with photoshop brushes...Today hasn't been very productive and the trash wont take itself out I guess (..because out of the three of us in the house I am the only one who ever does..) But, I'll stop typing soon and maybe I'll have to forfeit the gym to finish my studies. That is more important and I just need to get over this whole"pity-me-low-self-esteem" crap. I am not sure why, I just want it to go away. I think I haven't been working out very well and my body is feeling it, the only thing that worries me is if I am actually gaining a significant amount of weight. I don't know, I really don't.But besides that stupid stuff, I feel alright. I always have such high goals for myself on the weekend and I always end up spending it mostly with leisure. (I really need better discipline) I will feel better if I do some more responsible things, keep busy instead of play around on the computer.For the rest of the day and night I only have a few goals:- Finish my AP Euro homework (3/4hr.)
- Take the AP Mock Exam Questions (1hr.)
- Excercise? (1hr.)
- Clean up more (..I did earlier but..) (1 hr.)
Even with such a simple list the hours add up to potentially 7 hours. It is already 15.29 now!! I am so good with guessing time but I can never control it well enough (the irony *laugh*)
ラベル: exercise, goals, gym, jewlery, market, ユチョン, 東方神起
Coffee & Fanart
This is just a mini post after my previous, I think I will end up making a few of these this morning because instead of typing normally I just haven't typed at all. Yesterday a lot of fanart caught my attention when Wrenn was over.
But anyways, here are a few that caught my eye.
Maybe there is a noticeable pattern? These are all mostly ユンジェ fanarts but they are sweet. I think I'll put up a few links on the side of my page, like to this blog where the fanart is hosted. Many different types of styles and lots of things to look at.
1. More modern style and the pose is so sweet. The clothing style is comfortable and simple, just overal a cute drawing.
2. A contrast in style and heavier colors. I really liked the pose in this drawing, it's very sweet. The style is also a flash from the past, I really liked Yunho's longer hair (x__x')
3. Very cute chibi drawings, I'm not really sure how else to describe it because the english equivalent would sound silly. (little people drawings=wtf??) But anyways, that was a cute clip and the scene is sweet.
4. Very intense and pretty Jaejoong drawing. I really liked this one a lot, the clothing and winter scene is very nice.
Shou should really draw something for me! I am waiting patiently for the Yoochun sketch but she is so very good. I am anxious to see something new. If I could trade my talent of writing....*nah* *laugh* I enjoy writing too much but it would be cool to be able to draw though.
葵
ラベル: fanart, parsonlife, ユンジェ, 東方神起
Go For the Gold!
POSTED ON: 2009年4月18日土曜日 @ 15:24 | 0 comments
They are really amazing huh? I got such a kick out of this today. Not too much to write at the current moment but I want to write a lot later and add some photos, or just things on my mind.
I am about to go to the gym, I never got to work at my arms really when I went with Wrenn this morning. 35 minutes of cardio and it was nice but pretty easy.
-Aoi
ラベル: チャンミン, ユノ, 東方神起
Time Stops.
POSTED ON: 2009年4月16日木曜日 @ 15:48 | 0 comments
No actually it doesn't at all, unfortunately. (ha) At the moment though it feels a little less busy so in a way it kind of feels like time has stopped a little.
I am about to head to the gym and am just very thoughtful. Nothing particular, just thoughtful. I am so happy to go though because my stomach has felt so uneasy lately. I really need to go and I certainly have the motivation. It will be day 1 of my sort of improved excercise plan, thanks ironically to my girlfriend ♥ But anyways, I am about to go do that.
No homework that isn't voluntary tonight but I will still study regardless if I don't fall asleep which I will really try not to do.
I had that test today on everything up to the Scientific Revolution in Euro. I actually think I did pretty good but it was very difficult. The questions were tricky because multiple answers seemed right. A lot of people bombed it.
I feel so tired right now though, very exhuasted. I know that once I go I will feel better (more awake and less guilty). I think I'll bring my history book to read a little because it passes the time.
Hmm..nothing new is really going on. I have some homework to do over the weekend but mostly its just studies. I need to crack down more on my AP Language terms. I am very nervous about them and even now not so much worried about the essays. I think that is dangerous thinking but that's alright for now I am tired!
This morning I got up late and had finished work. Oddly enough I felt even more tired when I got up later. I had circles under my eyes today for the first time in awhile. It was really strange and I had to run to school to make the second period bell. (That was my own fault though..) I had to look like an idiot running up the sidewalk, made my chest hurt a little because it was cold but I think mostly because I never run. It was strange...
I digress...(like always) I'll type something more interesting and lively tonight (or I'll try too). Something other than school. But it's worth noting that I miss my girlfriend a lot recently and she's been on my mind. A lot, a lot.葵
ラベル: exercise, gym, school, studies, 学校, 勉強
Time Just Slips Away
POSTED ON: 2009年4月15日水曜日 @ 23:19 | 0 comments
Where does the time go? I really feel like sometimes it just slips out of my hands before I even have time to do enough! It is so troublesome, really. I wish that I could live on no sleep and just be productive all the time. I do enjoy sleep though...but it seems like a shame to be missing what is going on in the world while sleeping. There are always new things happening..
But, to continue on to what I wanted to finish a few days ago (^^;;)April 15- AP Review Session European History (Euro Hist.) (Lunch/Advisary)
April 15- AP Review Session English Language and Composition (EL&C) Afterschool (14.00-16.05)
April 16- Test Review on Everything up to Scientific Revolution ( Euro Hist.)April 17- Group Meeting in AdvisaryApril 20- AP Mock Exam Questions Due (EL&C)April 21- AP Review Session Euro Hist. (Lunch/Advisary)
April 21- AP Review Session Euro Hist. Afterschool [Test on Everything up to and including French Revolution] (1HR)April 23- AP Review Session EL&CApril 24- AP Review Session Euro Hist. (Lunch/Advisary)April 24- AP Review Session Euro Hist. Afterschool April 25- AP EL&C Mock Exam (7.30am-?)April 27- AP Review Session Euro Hist. Voluntary Afterschool ReviewApril 29- Mock Exam AP Euro Hist. (3HRS. Afterschool)April 30- AP Review Session AP Euro Hist. (Lunch/Adv.)
April 30- AP Review Session AP Euro Hist. (Afterschool)May 1- AP Review Session AP Euro Hist. (Lunch/Adv.)
May 1- AP Review Session AP Euro Hist. (Afterschool)
May 3- Artist Workshop Photography Final Exam (14.00-16.00)
May 4- Ap Review Session Euro Hist. (Lunch/Adv.)
May 5- Ap Review Session Euro Hist.
May 6- AP Review Session Euro Hist. (Lunch/Adv.)
May 7- Ap Review Session Euro Hist. (Lunch/Adv.)
May 8- AP European History EXAM ☆
May 13- AP English Language and Composition EXAM☆
May 21/22- Love♥* As the days go by this color marks the completion of the events/studiesMy growing list of dates! Wow, it seems like a lot to type up but of course a lot of it is just reminders to attend review sessions. I have not added my AP Language and Composition Review Session dates because they are always up in the air. I actually think that one conflicts at the moment too..I have to sort that out tomorrow! The tests are fast approaching right? It is kind of troublesome and it makes me think I should be devoting myself to studies at this time (haha) But, I'll sort of skate around it and say this is an educational way to be organized while listening to 東方神起- Stand Up. I think the most important date is the last one (ha) Yes! I am so excited, I really hope that I get to see her then. I am really looking forward to it, I miss her so much damn it ><
ラベル: review, schedule, school, studies, 学校, 勉強
フィーバーうっき★!
POSTED ON: 2009年4月14日火曜日 @ 23:02 | 0 comments
The title of this blog is simple and sweet but also the name of my new monkey widget on the side of the blog named "フィーバーうっき★" or "Gloomy Fever." It's cute huh? I like monkeys a lot so it seems very suiting.
http://www.blogpartsfactory.com/ <------------- I just wanted to type up a very short blog for it because I will post a new post about all my new dates and deadlines before I go to sleep tonight. For now I have a lot of homework to do for history. One day I'll have to take a foto of this massive packet! It is very intense but I feel strongly that I will be prepared for the exam. I have some other things to discuss too with goals and such but I'll type them later on tonight (tomorrow..ehh lol) when I am finished. Oh and I have very grateful again or even blessed really. Somethings go wrong but there is always a balance of good. A beautiful line that I read just awhile ago
"..you laughed a lot earlier today so you had to cry tonight." This is so very true. A good balance in the universe and of course Karma too.
I am rambling but that reminds me of another phrase that I can't find even with a lot of searching.
"Pain is Inevitable, Suffering is Optional." Very true, I really like this phrase a lot.葵
ラベル: ブログパーツ, 猿
Day 2; [9095]
No particular reasons behind the title except that it is
Tuesday and I am listening to 東方神起
9095.
I also want to post a few days before I head off to school. I promised to kind of do it last night but my computer was acting really strangely. To be honest it sort of worries me because I have never had problems with it when it came to watching videos on youtube but last night it gave me error messages (closing the whole internet).
Worries me, but the CPU usage doesn't seem out of control or anything so I guess I can rest easy for now.
I got up a little late but not really that bad. I'll probably leave a little later than usual but every once in awhile that is okay I think. It is nice to rest a little in the morning. Tomorrow I will get up earlier for sure.
So, to the dates, so I can atleast type those out:
- April 15th- AP REVIEW ENGLISH (14.00-?)
- April 25th- Mock AP EXAM ENGLISH (7.30am)
- May 3- Artist Workshop Photography (14.00-16.00)
- May 8th- AP European Exam
- May 13th- AP English Exam
ラベル: school, studies, 勉強
Back to Work!
POSTED ON: 2009年4月13日月曜日 @ 6:47 | 0 comments
So, I am getting ready to leave for school within the next few minutes. That kind of sucks a little but at the same time I am really happy to get back into a healthy routine (laugh) I feel much better when I have a bit of structure.
I think that I am relatively indescisive but sometimes having too much time is a bad thing, particularly after working very hard or making a lot of decisions. It tends to bring a spell off laziness known as the days off from Spring Break. I think today will be a little tough because I didn't get all my work done last night but that's alright. I walked myself into it and I can always fix it. I'll have too, of course.
So, I need to schedule a meeting with my counselor and finish my history work. I think I'll post my schedule to keep organized today after school. My testings and such. I have a planner which is good but I might try to find a good virtual calender because I am on the computer a lot too. Sadly enough, I think that Human Potential course did me a little good with goals. I find myself making them a lot more (...finishing them is another story! ha)
But here are some small short terms I have been kind of running through mind, while I have a few minutes left:
1. Keep up my excercise (atleast every other day..) but with more intensity.
- Level: Achievable
2. Study Japanese atleast thirty minutes a day
- Level: Possible (..but the next two months will be very packed with school studies)
3. Study atleast an hour a night
- Level: Achievable
4. Finish ALL work
- Level: Achievable
5. No eating after 20.00
- Level: Achievable (..but I am always up very very late with eyes bigger than my stomach x3)
6. Control my portions after school
- Level: Achievable (..but it is a whole change in my eating pattern but for the better)
Those are some of the things I have been thinking about without really mentioning my school/career goals. I think, like I said, I might type that a little later on tonight. It is time to work hard and leave for school. I can only hope that things work out today. I need lots of luck and positive thought. If somethings go wrong than there will be good to balance it out. Vice versa as well..
葵
ラベル: goals, school, 勉強
Smiling Eyes
POSTED ON: 2009年4月12日日曜日 @ 14:41 | 0 comments
I just wanted to add this foto of Junsu, well rather screencaps. He looked so cute ne.
I really like his eyes, they always look like they're smiling. He has very pretty shape to them.
葵
ラベル: ジュンス, 東方神起
A week With No School
POSTED ON: 2009年4月11日土曜日 @ 17:19 | 1 comments
So, my second post but first official one in my mind. I'm just having some dinner now and looking at my school work thinking I'd like to kick myself for not beginning more of it early (^^;)I have been on spring break now for over a week and it is already Saturday. Sundays always feel depressing in the sense that Monday will follow and Mondays are always slow. I think I'd rather trade Tuesdays for Mondays or just rename them to "everyone suffers" day. Very simple ne.But anyways, I feel pretty good regardless. About two weeks ago or even shorter than that really, I was thinking that my Spring Break was going to be spent much differently. For the past two years I have gone to visit Shou but things didn't work out this time. I was very bummed but expected it so in the end it wasn't such a shock. Now we're trying to make a date work inbetween now and summer (because I want to be there during summer for Shou's birthday). Money screams at me both ways this time it seems (ha)I know it will work out though, it always does so I am trying not to worry more than I usually do. My head might explode if so! I digressed but anyways, I have this European History work to do and some study aids to look through. My Japanese is something else I want to continue working on because I finally feel like I am improving. I have been trying hard to work on my hirigana and Katakana. I really need to learn and in the long run I will know it will be the best.I need to push Shou a little more as well, both of us need to help each other. I think my next language aim is to improve my Spanish and learn some Korean. I don't think my pronounciation in Korean is to bad but I really don't know the language (even the basics yet). I'm determined so hopefully when I get some free time from school and these upcomming exams (aish! 3 weeks away) I can concentrate more on that.Today went well though but I am tired and shouldn't be. All day I have had this mental image of myself completing a lot of work but I haven't yet. I like this image, I want it to happen soon (hah) So hopefully after I post this. I excercised this morning but not appropriately. I guess I am still pleased though. I went for an hour and a half but my cardio was half hearted while I read through my Japanese study aid. I excercised my legs and arms real well though but I feel like I should have been sweating more. I guess everyday I can't have a very hard work out but I hope to not become lazy...it's so easy.I think tonight I will study, have some coffee and just think a bit. I want to write something new (I type fanfics) but I'm not sure yet on a single idea. I'll figure it out soon, but anyways, I think I will sleep well too. I still feel sleepy and I can smell the black chamomile spray by my bed (lovely little mist to "help sleep") Not sure how well it works but I am always so dead by the time I crawl into bed that I can't complain !Well, that's really it. Maybe later on I'll babble a little about 東方神起..or post some fotos or something.葵
ラベル: school, studies, 学校, 勉強
Introduction
POSTED ON: @ 17:07 | 0 comments
So, after thinking for a few minutes on exactly how I was going to do this..I decided in the end that my post's title would just be called, very originally might I add, "Introduction"
To be honest I am not really sure how long I will keep up writing in this blog but it is rather cute. I always have things I can ramble about though, so maybe this will last longer than I suspect.
I don't really intend to make friends through blogger or anything of the sort because I have never been very good with blogs. I hope to get atleast a few good posts and some memorable writings for myself.
I figure this blog will most likely be dedicated to the variety of topics that are floating in my mind:
The constant: 東方神起, My Love, School, Food
and the variety: Friends, Family, Personal, Career, etc...
I think that after typing in this blog for more than a week I will realize how boring I am (unless I constantly am posting photos of 東方神起 or talking about my Love) than maybe not so much.
Oh and I guess if anyone did ever stunble upon this it might be helpful to know that my name is 葵 (Aoi)
ラベル: introduction
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Very appropriate title today because that is what I feel like I am doing. Despite the fact that I am taking some time out to type up a blog. I just feel like I should though.
Well, maybe not. I have to finish about four pages in my history study guide and of course they all require a lot of reading. The topic I am on now I really dislike to some extent.
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