Lonely.
POSTED ON: 2010年3月31日水曜日 @ 23:53 | 0 comments
This is going to be one of the most difficult things to overcome...the loneliness.One whole day without speaking...I guess I'm still here and she must be fine...so I just need to get over it.
I still have so many questions and memories that wont leave my mind. They keep popping up and making my chest hurt. I really feel so...just, very hurt. So so, hurt.
I'm so lonely...and I still don't understand. Today was hard. Tomorrow will be hard. For a long while, things will be hard. I accept that...but it's not making it any easier.
So many things have changed so quickly..I never want to get hurt so badly again.
I think I might have some wine though now. Cheers.
Really, I want to be happy...
ほんとうにさびしいだよ。。。
Can't Regret Anything
POSTED ON: @ 15:26 | 0 comments
Right? 今日は新しい日です。Today is a new day. I feel like my Spring Break is slipping away. I've been holding myself back a little these days...
I have to stop this though and snap out of it. I felt really guilty today about getting this tattoo. It really made me dwell a lot. But, I think I have reasoned that out in my mind.
You can never regret anything in your life because it makes you who you are, right?
Today we are having Chinese for dinner. Have to wait until the car gets back. My sister's friend is here too. I'm happy for it though, but I'm not too hungry at the moment. My appetite hasn't been too good but my craving for coffee has been crazy lately (笑)
I need to study a lot tonight. Tomorrow I am going with Wrenn to a restaurant called Chans. It's really good actually.
Work...work...work....work...is in the forecast for my future it seems. The next month will be very hard but there is some good things coming up as well. I should be happier right now, right? I will try to be!
Plans For Today
POSTED ON: 2010年3月29日月曜日 @ 13:10 | 0 comments
I've been writing too much lately! I realize that...but it's okay. Today I had a long discussion with my mom and dad about university.
I didn't know I had to fill out a form for on-campus residency! And it costs another $100 to send in the form! Anyways, I spoke to someone at the university about some more things to come.I got an estimate for the costs of one summer term. It's reasonable but quite expensive for us. I'm not giving up though and my mother, father and sister are supporting me one hundred percent.
がんばりますね!
Now I am going to send out the housing form and eventually figure out who I will room with.
おかさんを誇ります。 It's a good feeling. I'm glad that I have my family's support. My mother is proud of me because I am sticking to what I have wanted to do. I am carrying it out and doing something for myself.
Hmm...today the weather hasn't been too good. All over the state it hasn't been very good though.
妹ちゃんは病気です。 I hope that she feels better soon though. She has an exam tomorrow in math but I am sure she will do fine. There's no beating her in math (笑)
今日はショッピングモールに行き度い~ I think I will go to the mall around 4 o'clock or so. I want to go and shop a little. I think I am going alone though, which is okay.
Now I am going to send out the housing form and eventually figure out who I will room with.
おかさんを誇ります。 It's a good feeling. I'm glad that I have my family's support. My mother is proud of me because I am sticking to what I have wanted to do. I am carrying it out and doing something for myself.
Hmm...today the weather hasn't been too good. All over the state it hasn't been very good though.
妹ちゃんは病気です。 I hope that she feels better soon though. She has an exam tomorrow in math but I am sure she will do fine. There's no beating her in math (笑)
今日はショッピングモールに行き度い~ I think I will go to the mall around 4 o'clock or so. I want to go and shop a little. I think I am going alone though, which is okay.
I have to get ready in a little bit. Tonight we are having a really good dinner...which makes me happy. I ate fine today. Had some coffee and my sister's English muffin pizzas
They're amazing (笑)Today I need to begin my Chinese Studies. The exam is on Thursday and I have so much to finish before then.
Hmm...I want to improve myself and become better. I have so many things that I need to "repair" with myself now. It can only make me stronger right? I want to become a person that people look up to...and want to be around. I never want to be left again...but I know it's inevitable. At least I am doing something for myself though. I am going somewhere in life and not taking the easy way out. I'll try hard to remain with a smile...if anything you can either laugh or cry in life right?
Oh! And also... 私のおすすめ！
I just finished the series, nine episodes only~ It's really good and the acting was great as well.
I just finished the series, nine episodes only~ It's really good and the acting was great as well.
" おまえはかんぶつ！ "
じょうだんですよ~! But the main character, when turned Samurai does call people this very often..(笑)
ラベル: goals, life, university, 大学
東方神起のカリスマ★「ジュンス」
POSTED ON: 2010年3月8日月曜日 @ 19:53 | 0 comments
At the Daegu performance of Mozart, ジュンス shouted both ユチョン and ジェジュン names! Showing lots of love for his bandmates at the end of his performance.
This must have been embarassing for ユチョン no?
なにかんがえての?
恥ずかしいだよ。
ラベル: Junsu, Mozart, tohoshinki, ジュンス, ユチョン, 東方神起
Photography Ⅱ
POSTED ON: 2010年3月6日土曜日 @ 15:09 | 1 comments
Last weekend I finally went out and took some pictures of this tree around the corner from us. I have been so obsessed with the color, because it's so brilliant. It's really beautiful!
The pictures are really much larger and look much better in their natural state but I had to resize them to fit.
なにかんがえての?
ラベル: Ⅱ, life, nature, photography, trees, 写真
