And I'll be very busy for the next two days as well!
宿題がたくさんある
私は宿題する必要があります~
I have to study and study hard. I am thankful that it is still early today (more or less)
Today, I am going to clean up and study as much as possible.
The whole week has already gone by and some of the weekend. It was, overall, a really good week. There is so much coming up by Christmas and it is a little intimidating. It is all about planning though, planning and preparing. If I close my eyes and sleep it off then nothing will get done. I just have to make sure to not feign ignorance and just ignore some of things I deem "less important."
I know, it seems like, "how is the first week of school tiring?"
I was surprised too..very surprised in fact, though I know a large majority of it is adjustment to sleeping patterns. My sleeping habits are terrible too and so I need to adjust my body again. It is slowly changing though, so I think I will have a little more "spring in my step" by the end of the month (fully)
This morning I woke up at 5.00 like I have been doing (with the exception of yesterday) I hope to continue this pattern, as mentioned before, I really need the extra time to wake myself up.
Last night I finished all of my school work too. I felt pretty accomplished. I have a lot to do over the weekend though. Some mandatory, some not straightforward but I have to do it. It has been an interesting week, already I have discovered somethings I need to work on.
This year is going to be tough, very tough. It is good though, it should be quite a challenge and I know I'll feel so so accomplished by the end if I continue to work hard. This year should help improve my organizational and time management skills. These areas need some work, so hopefully, I can stick with what I am promising myself.
I really enjoy my two social studies classes: economics and Human Geography. I guess that's not so surprising, but so far they are very interesting.
Today will be a normal day. School spirit day too so I didn't have to think much about what to wear today. That's a relief (haha) The troubles in my life right? フフ~ Besides just being busy with school, there is some other interesting things going on. (I need to make a to-do list today too..)
ユンホ new Drama, Heading to the Ground is going to be airing soon, September 9th. Very exciting. All kinds of photos and teasers have come out for it. The plot seems very usual type of K-drama but he looks very cute and funny. I will try and watch it, I am interested to see how his acting is, especially after hearing so many good reports of him.
The whole group is also going to be given a break, suspended activity for about two months. Wow! What a long time compared to their 'week long' breaks with SM. I am sure they need it, I think it's a very good idea and hopefully people will see this too...The individual activity of the members has not been suspended so チャンギン will not prolong his filming for Paradise Meadow either.
They are all becoming so ambitious no? It is really great, though, I hope that everything with SM gets resolved quickly. It is stressful to think of these kinds of things..
Well, school begins soon so I have to leave in a few.
I have to leave for school in just a few minutes. It is already Wednesday and to be honest, I am very happy for that! (ha) But, none the less, I am enjoying my classes.
Today begins first lessons (for the most part) Really, yesterday some of my teachers were beginning lesson plans. This morning though, they defenitely will begin instruction. I will have to start with good habits from the beginning (even if some of it is easy work)
I had a little homework last night but it was really just getting things signed and assigned reading. Chemistry and Economics.
Today I want to finish (even if it's a small assignment) more promptly. I got a lot of things done yesterday and had a nice day but I ended up going to bed late. It cost me getting up later than I wanted. I am really that kind of person who has to get up an hour/hour and half beforehand to feel wide awake.
Okay, maybe I am a little tired this morning but I am much more awake then when I first woke up (ha)
今朝はブルーベリーコーヒー!
How strange, I thought yesterday, blueberry cobler coffee. So, I wasn't very anxious to drink it this morning even after my mom said "oh yeah it's amazing."
Well..."Oh yeah it's amazing!"
It has really woken me up and I needed it. So surprisingly good for something blueberry.
But besides that a little thought (ha) Today is the second day of school.
Dragging myself out of bed was hard. My body is not used to my schedule yet and so it is a little tough.
The verdict of the first day was good. I can tell some classes will be easier than others. Only a few things annoyed me, just really some of the people. It is too loud and noisy, people are rather rude too.
I kind of prefer the calm and getting down to work. Instead the first week is all introductions with silly tasks. I shouldn't complain, it is a nice break though too.
Today, wont be anything special but that's fine. Last night I took my sister to pick up some supplies. I got what I got assigned so far and some other supplies because everything was on sale (for the most part)
I think I'll stay in the library during lunch today though. It's quiet and cooler. But anyways (random) today should be good.
On a completely different note..I really miss Shou a lot this morning.
Yesterday on messenger I came back to this. It's cute right!? ha~ha. That kind of stuff makes me smile like an idiot. I love you baby, miss you with all my heart.
I have some relief today too and yesterday. This is good.
Actually, it will officially be the end of my summer break in about ten minutes. It is time to go back to a regular sleeping schedule (well, as regular as mine gets), essays, studying late night and feeling like time is slipping away.
I have been thining for a few days now of creating a post that sort of..briefly mentioned some highlights and lows of the summer. Because this is not completely private, it's unecessary to be overly excessive in detail, so I wont be. Just very general.
I have finally finished my summer assignment as well and I feel a little lighter then before but still a little nervous. Now I am having thoughts like, "I could have done better right?" Always these kinds of thoughts with me even if I put all of my time and effort in it (ha)
I have goals and plenty of thoughts for this school year. Normally I'd think more about these kinds of goals with the entrance into the New Year but since school begins now, I can't hold off these thoughts until then.
Already..it feels like I don't have any school tomorrow. It is a deadly thought and I feel very much awake.
So, first, maybe back to the summer idea.
Highlights:
. Spending time with Shou . Volunteering at Harris House . Studying Japanese and beginning Korean studies . Speaking to some people who I hadn't a chance too normally . Having more time to write and read . Spending more time with my mother, sister and father . Creating a plan for college, strongly developing my plans . Passing AP test results . Some new clothing . AADBSK 3
The "not so good"
. Certain circumstances . Health Issues . Realizations . Arguments . Odd Habits/patterns
It is not good to list too many negative aspects and to be honest, I don't have that many anyways. Maybe just, some of the things that did happen were rather major. They seemed to be enough to constitute a large list of negatives (ha) but summer is over now. Forward thinking~ or atleast just trying to live day by day. (I always find it hard to concentrate my thoughts like this though)
So, today (looks at clock) will be my first day back to school. Ahh, the feeling is alright (ha) My goals for this school year are pretty straightforward though.
. Less Procrastination
. Study Harder
. Retake SAT
. Get Accepted at ***
See? Very straightforward and very realistic. Every year I say these kinds of things so hopefully I will have the motivation to complete them this time.
Other than summer thoughts, I have some new thoughts as well. They have been ungoing but I think I have become more anxious and nervous than ever before.
There are some circumstances where..I just have to leave it up to fate and put everything I have (in those circumstances which I can do something about it) into the projects to get result for all of my hard work. You have to try your hardest and whatever you put out, you will get back. If you do very little, don't expect the results to be very promising..
On the instances that I have no control over..which there are quite a few too..I can only hope for the best. These are the things that make me most anxious but, things will turn out the way they are supposed to. I'll stay positive, it's the most I can do.
I am ready for the school year's new challenges though. Excited about it, because I can only improve myself and that is very, very important to me. Internally and externally.
Will I feel this inspire in the morning? Maybe not when I get up at 5.00am (haha)~
Oh and speaking of 'inspiring' I changed my desktop.
This summer has felt very long actually and for the most part, pretty busy.
I can't believe that tomorrow is my last free day before school begins! How crazy..
This weekend was good though. Yesterday, Wrenn and I went to work out for awhile in the morning. We spoke a lot about college and It just made me very excited. There are so many benefits to this college, such as location and the extensive Japanese programs. We both just talked and talked and talked about it the entire time.
She had to leave soon after and we decided I was going to go spend the night later on, after she got back from work.
I worked more on my packet due Monday. I still need to finish it too.
Wrenn and I had decided to have dinner when I came over, so we had a late dinner. It was really delicious~ (..I was so hungry by this time at night!)
Spicy Curry, salmon, been sprouts and rice.
We had chocolate ice cream 餅 afterwards~ Also very delicious.
The rest of the night we spent talking, watching clips and music videos..etc..the usual stuff like that. It was fun though and we stayed up late. I am still really tired at the moment to be honest (ha)
Unexplectantly, I have also got a new phone from my sister's friend. She is always buying new models and such, so she asked if I wanted her old Samsung.
Also, unexpectantly, Wrenn had brought me back a few gifts from Japan. Of course it was a nice feeling and I appreciate the gifts too~ Here is my phone with the Micky charm.
There are also this, "しょゆこと" which made me laugh. It reminded us both of....
Of course right? (ha)
The pattern on the handkerchief is really lovely, simple but nice.
She also showed me all of her stuff from Japan, which consisted of pamphlets, ticket stubs, magazines, etc. It was all very interesting! Secretly, I was trying to read the titles and such but that didn't turn out so wel (haha)
Today I have just been very tired but overall feel very fortunate. This weekend has been gone, considering it is the last one before school begins.
Yesterday, I began learning Korean in a slightly different method thanks to my friend Kai's advice. He is teaching me more conversationally and by different scenarios with different options (maybe one or two each). The scene from yesterday was something he asks me often when I first get online:
저녁 머거써요? have you had dinner yet?
jeo-nyeok meo-geo-sseo-yo?
Answer 1
네 머거써요 네 머거써요 - Yes I did
ne meo-geo-sseo-yo
언제 머거써요? - when did you eat?
eon-je meo-geo-sseo-yo?
언제=when
eon-je
한시간 전에요 - one hour before
hansi gan jeon neyo
한시간=one hour
전=before
맛있었어요?- was it good/delicious?
마시써써요 (pronounce it like this)
ma-si-sseo-sseo-yo
아니요- no
Aniyo
맛없었어요- It wasn't delicious
ma-deop-sseo-sseo-yo
마덥썻써요 (pronounced like)
Answer 2
아니요 아직요 - No not yet a-ni-yo a-ji-gyo
왜요? -why?
Waeyo?
바빠써요- I was busy
ba-ppa-seo-yo
뭐 했는데요? What did you do?
mwo haen-neun-de-yo
핸는데요(pronounced more like)
뭐=what
학교 숙제요.. -School assignment..
hak-kkyo suk-jje-yo..
학교=school
숙제=assignment
공부요..-studies
gong-bu-yo..
공부=study
【Extra Studies】
*He translated a portion of a clip from the new AADBSK 3 video for me. It was a witty チャンギン moment and poor ジュンス is always bullied.
미치겠다- I am going to be crazy/ I think I am going crazy
The title reflects the mood of a few things at the moment. First, my attitude towards my own school work and studying of language. I have recently began my Korean studies again and even if it is only conversational phrases, I feel happy to learn it. It wouldn't be right to waste the opportunity to learn it, even with my stronger involvement in learning other languages.
In fact, it makes me happy to try and study a few at the same time. Maybe by the end of this year I really will be better at Korean. That would be cool, that is really my feeling towards it, kind of childish like "Oh how cool~!" (haha)
I am in a really good mood today and also yesterday. I finally finished my reading for the summer assignment, Crime and Punishment. I personally, really loved it! But, I think I might make a seperate blog for it when I begin answering my assesment questions/packet. It is worth writing about, it left an impression on me and was very rich in history. A very stunningly psychological and morbid story, really.
Today I want to do only a few things and it would make me happy to do all of them, if possible.
1. Go work out for a little (Review my Korean and listen to music)
2. Begin reviewing notes and answering the packet for my summer assignment
3. Write something!!
4. Blog
Just very simple things, you know? I want to go excercise for a bit now (I need to get out of the house, I have been stuck inside reading that book the whole week~) It will be nice and relaxing, ease my mind a little too..
Besides my goals for today and the more academic focus, I have been following very closely what is happening with TVXQ. Ahh..it is a little worrisome, I wont lie. I have read all kinds of articles and of course, even from just common sense, whether they win or lose they are going to suffer in some kind of way. SM entertainment has quite an influence and the expected sum of money the boys would have to pay if they lose..is..pheonominal. It is truly unfair.
Everyone just has to pray that everything will work out and that they know what they are doing. Win or lose, I am more concerned about what is best for them in terms of health and prosperity.
So, this is another topic that defenitely deserves the title "~~~hwaitinnnnggg~!" Besides the negative clouds that have been surrounding them, a lot of english subbed, AADBSK 3 clips have been floating around the internet.
They are so incredibly funny too! Last night I laughed while watching many of them. They are worth a post alone, so again I might wait to make a better post then just drone on after my own personal life (haha)
In short, I just wanted to write something because I have thought of so many things I would like to blog about lately. Serious to not so serious things. Writing all of this out though, I think I, even though it doesn't appear that way, organized some of my thoughts for future blogs.
No surprise right? (laugh) In everyday life you can see things that remind you of 東方神起 everywhere (if you don't already live in Japan and have constant reminders)
There was also some discussion about college too. It actually made my mind feel a little less heavy. I have been worried about that and very thoughtful. Truthfully, I feel a little more relaxed now. What would you say to me going to college in Miami, Shou?
Maybe it wont work out and maybe it is not for me, but I won't know until I get a chance to experience it. Kudos to Wrenn for bringing it up, because I had thought about it before but shot it down. I don't think my mom is to keen about the idea but the college offers a very extensive Japanese program as well as a realistic entrace exam score.
It is nice to think that maybe I have some kind of set plan instead of scrambling in the dark. We will have to wait and see though. It makes me excited thinking about it though. Just one more step closer to living the way that I want too, accomplishing what I want to.
Tonight I am just going to relax. I had a lot of food at the mall but it was so good and at a decent price! I am a little tired at the moment and thinking about beginning that book again tomorrow. It will be a pain but it has to be done and I know it will benefit me (other than just because it's mandatory)
I am up so early today then I have been! It is actually a really nice feeling.
I am about to go get ready for shopping today. My sister, Wrenn and I are going to hit a few stores today. I am happy for it, we need to find some new clothing. I think all of us have changed sizes in clothing since last year. Plus, when we shop together we can be more relaxed because we don't judge each other's choices or style. We have the same thoughts (for the most part).
I think it will be a nice day though. Just lots of hanging out and hopefully getting some good deals.
In the back of my mind, I also hope that Shou feels better too! (Your health worries me love)
Oh and it seems like a lot of fans are distraught this morning after watching the couple talk between these two. The rough translations were a little dull but still still cute none the less. They seem to be very defensive about their sexuality though (laugh) makes you wonder what exactly they are thinking. Regardless, the talk seems very scripted and they seem uncomfortable with each other. So many changes have happened to the whole band within the past two years they weren't active. I still think they have a lot of love though *shrugs*
I would say they "are both so grown up" but the other clips from the DVD says otherwise (laugh)
「Type O people are outgoing, expressive, and passionate.
They are highly motivated, natural leaders.
Blessed with a strong physical presence, they aren’t afraid to gamble because they are so convinced they’ll win.
Type O Blood people are said to set the mood for a group and to take on the role of creating harmony among its members.
Their image is one of being peaceful and carefree. They are also thought to be big-hearted and benevolent, and they tend to spend money on others generously.
They are natural athletes.
They tend to be obsessive in their quest for success, and this can make them boring to others.
Type O’s are outgoing, and very social.
They are initiators, although they don’t always finish what they start. They appear to be levelheaded and trustworthy, but they often slip and make big blunders inadvertently.
That is also the what makes O Types lovable.
Creative and popular, they love to be the center of attention and appear very self confident.
Type 0 personalities can be carefree, generous, independent, flexible, idealistic, goal-oriented, athletic, competitive, and adaptable. They can also be clumsy, flighty, jealous, greedy, unreliable, obsessive lover, vain loudmouths. 」
Type O – Trendsetting, passionate, vain, self-confident, loyal.
まじで? Hmm..there is a lot of good and a lot of bad remarks here too (laugh) Some traits seem to relate to me and some not.
But, atleast I learned the word for "blood type," ketsu eki gata" (けつえきがた)
This English-subtitled edition of All About Dong Bang Shin Ki Season 3 comes in a boxset with a 60-page photobook, rolled poster (shipped in protective tube), and 6 DVDs containing the following:
Disc 1 - TVXQ's Saipan Story TVXQ's Special Holiday in Saipan
Special Stage Purple Line - 9/28/08 Inkigayo - Comeback Special- 10/05/08 Inkigayo - Mirotic- 10/12/08 Inkigayo - Mirotic & Mutizen Song Award 1- 10/19/08 Inkigayo - Mirotic & Mutizen Song Award 2- 10/26/08 Inkigayo - Mirotic & Mutizen Song Award 3- 11/30/08 Inkigayo - Wrong Number- 12/07/08 Inkigayo - Wrong Number- 12/30/08 Gayo Daejun - Mirotic, Wrong Number
Disc 5 - Making Film Theater Drama Vacation TVXQ and Member Stories Purple Line MV Sketch & Special Stage Behind Story Special Fan Meeting "4862 Scandal" Mirotic Jacket/MV Sketches & 1st Stage Behind Story TVXQ Fall Mini Concert Press Conference Wrong Number MV Sketch Special Fan Meeting "You're My Flower Lady" All About TVXQ Season 3 - Holiday In Saipan Diary All About TVXQ Season 3 - Jacket Sketch All About TVXQ Season 3 - Picture of You Exclusive MV Sketch All About TVXQ Season 3 - Saipan Coconut Secret Story The 3rd Asia Tour Concert - O Poster Photo Sketch Yamaha Promotion: 2009 Bangkok Motor Show
Disc 6 - Show: SBS-TV Entertainment Program Collection 2/23/08 Line Up 3/2/08 Miraculous Victory & Defeat - Max, Xiah, U-Know 9/21/08 TVXQ Fall Mini Concert (Rising Sun, Hey!(Don’t Bring Me Down), Love In The Ice, Mirotic) 10/2/08 Kim Jung Eun's Chocolate No Cut Story
I am really happy about them. Especially having a foreign language class again. This year will be tough, but it is so exciting. We seemed to wait for forever to get our schedules though. I ran into a few people from previous classes and we spoke briefly about our AP exams. It was nice. My sister and I also spoke about Buddhism too.
I just saw you Beyond the course of time A room that we once shared But my memory's a haze Forgetting what was said
I gently held out my hand
And in that perfect moment
You disappeared - I lost you over again
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you Just how I remembered Brimming with tenderness And somewhere in the calm A feeling that nothing had ever changed Your presence close beside me till I wake
I just saw you
A moment far too brief
Before the daylight came
But my heart is beating fast
Perhaps we'll meet again
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you Just how I remembered Brimming with tenderness And somewhere in the calm A feeling that nothing had ever changed Your presence close beside me till I wake
I see you - until I wake from shallow sleep
An artist without a brush Can't paint upon the canvas Without you here - there is no colour A colourless landscape
In a shallow sleep
I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake
I see you - shallow sleep
*I really adore this song. I guess that Hyde might be considered a little "old school" now ne? He has such great music though. I have always really liked this song though. The feeling is something that I can really relate too at the moment.
After so many rumours of disbandment caused from the lawsuit against SM's "slave contract" many fans, including myself, have found it comforting at how much the members care for each other. How much, they care about the band and their fans feelings as well.
ジェチュ have even gotten the same tattoo which is across their heart with the words that all fans have been repeating excessively through all of this mess "Always Keep the Faith" almost a symbol of the bands influence upon it's united fans.
There is not any clear fotos out yet of ジェジュン but it is still clearly the same tattoo.
ユチョン is also sporting a necklace which repeats the words "Always Keep the Faith"
ジュンス shares the same necklace.
As for the other two members, they are not quite as visible with these symbols of faith but that should not make a difference. Quite a few fans are finding it to be disheartening, particularly because the other two are still remaining under the SM label. Thankfully, it seems that there are no quarrels between the members and all five feel that the contract is unfair, just the way they are handling it is different
Many international and domestic fan projects to support the band have begun. Encouraging messages from all over the world, stressing that "without all 5 there is nothing."
Brief messages and banners are displayed on personal blogs and TVXQ forums:
5+1= 0/5-1=0
This type of message also appeared around the time of possible replacement of two of the members; ジェジュンとジュンス
It is clearly evident from personal statements and all of the hard work that the band has put into their current status, that they will not be disbanding. Only trying to fix a contract that has left them exhuasted with unfair treatment.
So, you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
You learn that you really can endure,
that you really are strong, and you really do have worth.
You learn and learn, with every goodbye you learn.
Scream your name
Your thoughts, and your cries. Be nice.
Tagboard here, I like shoutmix.com. It can be 100% in width, the height you can put it as whatever. Best if the style is "wide"
And I'll be very busy for the next two days as well!
宿題がたくさんある
私は宿題する必要があります~
I have to study and study hard. I am thankful that it is still early today (more or less)
Today, I am going to clean up and study as much as possible.
The whole week has already gone by and some of the weekend. It was, overall, a really good week. There is so much coming up by Christmas and it is a little intimidating. It is all about planning though, planning and preparing. If I close my eyes and sleep it off then nothing will get done. I just have to make sure to not feign ignorance and just ignore some of things I deem "less important."
I know, it seems like, "how is the first week of school tiring?"
I was surprised too..very surprised in fact, though I know a large majority of it is adjustment to sleeping patterns. My sleeping habits are terrible too and so I need to adjust my body again. It is slowly changing though, so I think I will have a little more "spring in my step" by the end of the month (fully)
This morning I woke up at 5.00 like I have been doing (with the exception of yesterday) I hope to continue this pattern, as mentioned before, I really need the extra time to wake myself up.
Last night I finished all of my school work too. I felt pretty accomplished. I have a lot to do over the weekend though. Some mandatory, some not straightforward but I have to do it. It has been an interesting week, already I have discovered somethings I need to work on.
This year is going to be tough, very tough. It is good though, it should be quite a challenge and I know I'll feel so so accomplished by the end if I continue to work hard. This year should help improve my organizational and time management skills. These areas need some work, so hopefully, I can stick with what I am promising myself.
I really enjoy my two social studies classes: economics and Human Geography. I guess that's not so surprising, but so far they are very interesting.
Today will be a normal day. School spirit day too so I didn't have to think much about what to wear today. That's a relief (haha) The troubles in my life right? フフ~ Besides just being busy with school, there is some other interesting things going on. (I need to make a to-do list today too..)
ユンホ new Drama, Heading to the Ground is going to be airing soon, September 9th. Very exciting. All kinds of photos and teasers have come out for it. The plot seems very usual type of K-drama but he looks very cute and funny. I will try and watch it, I am interested to see how his acting is, especially after hearing so many good reports of him.
The whole group is also going to be given a break, suspended activity for about two months. Wow! What a long time compared to their 'week long' breaks with SM. I am sure they need it, I think it's a very good idea and hopefully people will see this too...The individual activity of the members has not been suspended so チャンギン will not prolong his filming for Paradise Meadow either.
They are all becoming so ambitious no? It is really great, though, I hope that everything with SM gets resolved quickly. It is stressful to think of these kinds of things..
Well, school begins soon so I have to leave in a few.
I have to leave for school in just a few minutes. It is already Wednesday and to be honest, I am very happy for that! (ha) But, none the less, I am enjoying my classes.
Today begins first lessons (for the most part) Really, yesterday some of my teachers were beginning lesson plans. This morning though, they defenitely will begin instruction. I will have to start with good habits from the beginning (even if some of it is easy work)
I had a little homework last night but it was really just getting things signed and assigned reading. Chemistry and Economics.
Today I want to finish (even if it's a small assignment) more promptly. I got a lot of things done yesterday and had a nice day but I ended up going to bed late. It cost me getting up later than I wanted. I am really that kind of person who has to get up an hour/hour and half beforehand to feel wide awake.
Okay, maybe I am a little tired this morning but I am much more awake then when I first woke up (ha)
今朝はブルーベリーコーヒー!
How strange, I thought yesterday, blueberry cobler coffee. So, I wasn't very anxious to drink it this morning even after my mom said "oh yeah it's amazing."
Well..."Oh yeah it's amazing!"
It has really woken me up and I needed it. So surprisingly good for something blueberry.
But besides that a little thought (ha) Today is the second day of school.
Dragging myself out of bed was hard. My body is not used to my schedule yet and so it is a little tough.
The verdict of the first day was good. I can tell some classes will be easier than others. Only a few things annoyed me, just really some of the people. It is too loud and noisy, people are rather rude too.
I kind of prefer the calm and getting down to work. Instead the first week is all introductions with silly tasks. I shouldn't complain, it is a nice break though too.
Today, wont be anything special but that's fine. Last night I took my sister to pick up some supplies. I got what I got assigned so far and some other supplies because everything was on sale (for the most part)
I think I'll stay in the library during lunch today though. It's quiet and cooler. But anyways (random) today should be good.
On a completely different note..I really miss Shou a lot this morning.
Yesterday on messenger I came back to this. It's cute right!? ha~ha. That kind of stuff makes me smile like an idiot. I love you baby, miss you with all my heart.
I have some relief today too and yesterday. This is good.
Actually, it will officially be the end of my summer break in about ten minutes. It is time to go back to a regular sleeping schedule (well, as regular as mine gets), essays, studying late night and feeling like time is slipping away.
I have been thining for a few days now of creating a post that sort of..briefly mentioned some highlights and lows of the summer. Because this is not completely private, it's unecessary to be overly excessive in detail, so I wont be. Just very general.
I have finally finished my summer assignment as well and I feel a little lighter then before but still a little nervous. Now I am having thoughts like, "I could have done better right?" Always these kinds of thoughts with me even if I put all of my time and effort in it (ha)
I have goals and plenty of thoughts for this school year. Normally I'd think more about these kinds of goals with the entrance into the New Year but since school begins now, I can't hold off these thoughts until then.
Already..it feels like I don't have any school tomorrow. It is a deadly thought and I feel very much awake.
So, first, maybe back to the summer idea.
Highlights:
. Spending time with Shou . Volunteering at Harris House . Studying Japanese and beginning Korean studies . Speaking to some people who I hadn't a chance too normally . Having more time to write and read . Spending more time with my mother, sister and father . Creating a plan for college, strongly developing my plans . Passing AP test results . Some new clothing . AADBSK 3
The "not so good"
. Certain circumstances . Health Issues . Realizations . Arguments . Odd Habits/patterns
It is not good to list too many negative aspects and to be honest, I don't have that many anyways. Maybe just, some of the things that did happen were rather major. They seemed to be enough to constitute a large list of negatives (ha) but summer is over now. Forward thinking~ or atleast just trying to live day by day. (I always find it hard to concentrate my thoughts like this though)
So, today (looks at clock) will be my first day back to school. Ahh, the feeling is alright (ha) My goals for this school year are pretty straightforward though.
. Less Procrastination
. Study Harder
. Retake SAT
. Get Accepted at ***
See? Very straightforward and very realistic. Every year I say these kinds of things so hopefully I will have the motivation to complete them this time.
Other than summer thoughts, I have some new thoughts as well. They have been ungoing but I think I have become more anxious and nervous than ever before.
There are some circumstances where..I just have to leave it up to fate and put everything I have (in those circumstances which I can do something about it) into the projects to get result for all of my hard work. You have to try your hardest and whatever you put out, you will get back. If you do very little, don't expect the results to be very promising..
On the instances that I have no control over..which there are quite a few too..I can only hope for the best. These are the things that make me most anxious but, things will turn out the way they are supposed to. I'll stay positive, it's the most I can do.
I am ready for the school year's new challenges though. Excited about it, because I can only improve myself and that is very, very important to me. Internally and externally.
Will I feel this inspire in the morning? Maybe not when I get up at 5.00am (haha)~
Oh and speaking of 'inspiring' I changed my desktop.
This summer has felt very long actually and for the most part, pretty busy.
I can't believe that tomorrow is my last free day before school begins! How crazy..
This weekend was good though. Yesterday, Wrenn and I went to work out for awhile in the morning. We spoke a lot about college and It just made me very excited. There are so many benefits to this college, such as location and the extensive Japanese programs. We both just talked and talked and talked about it the entire time.
She had to leave soon after and we decided I was going to go spend the night later on, after she got back from work.
I worked more on my packet due Monday. I still need to finish it too.
Wrenn and I had decided to have dinner when I came over, so we had a late dinner. It was really delicious~ (..I was so hungry by this time at night!)
Spicy Curry, salmon, been sprouts and rice.
We had chocolate ice cream 餅 afterwards~ Also very delicious.
The rest of the night we spent talking, watching clips and music videos..etc..the usual stuff like that. It was fun though and we stayed up late. I am still really tired at the moment to be honest (ha)
Unexplectantly, I have also got a new phone from my sister's friend. She is always buying new models and such, so she asked if I wanted her old Samsung.
Also, unexpectantly, Wrenn had brought me back a few gifts from Japan. Of course it was a nice feeling and I appreciate the gifts too~ Here is my phone with the Micky charm.
There are also this, "しょゆこと" which made me laugh. It reminded us both of....
Of course right? (ha)
The pattern on the handkerchief is really lovely, simple but nice.
She also showed me all of her stuff from Japan, which consisted of pamphlets, ticket stubs, magazines, etc. It was all very interesting! Secretly, I was trying to read the titles and such but that didn't turn out so wel (haha)
Today I have just been very tired but overall feel very fortunate. This weekend has been gone, considering it is the last one before school begins.
Yesterday, I began learning Korean in a slightly different method thanks to my friend Kai's advice. He is teaching me more conversationally and by different scenarios with different options (maybe one or two each). The scene from yesterday was something he asks me often when I first get online:
저녁 머거써요? have you had dinner yet?
jeo-nyeok meo-geo-sseo-yo?
Answer 1
네 머거써요 네 머거써요 - Yes I did
ne meo-geo-sseo-yo
언제 머거써요? - when did you eat?
eon-je meo-geo-sseo-yo?
언제=when
eon-je
한시간 전에요 - one hour before
hansi gan jeon neyo
한시간=one hour
전=before
맛있었어요?- was it good/delicious?
마시써써요 (pronounce it like this)
ma-si-sseo-sseo-yo
아니요- no
Aniyo
맛없었어요- It wasn't delicious
ma-deop-sseo-sseo-yo
마덥썻써요 (pronounced like)
Answer 2
아니요 아직요 - No not yet a-ni-yo a-ji-gyo
왜요? -why?
Waeyo?
바빠써요- I was busy
ba-ppa-seo-yo
뭐 했는데요? What did you do?
mwo haen-neun-de-yo
핸는데요(pronounced more like)
뭐=what
학교 숙제요.. -School assignment..
hak-kkyo suk-jje-yo..
학교=school
숙제=assignment
공부요..-studies
gong-bu-yo..
공부=study
【Extra Studies】
*He translated a portion of a clip from the new AADBSK 3 video for me. It was a witty チャンギン moment and poor ジュンス is always bullied.
미치겠다- I am going to be crazy/ I think I am going crazy
The title reflects the mood of a few things at the moment. First, my attitude towards my own school work and studying of language. I have recently began my Korean studies again and even if it is only conversational phrases, I feel happy to learn it. It wouldn't be right to waste the opportunity to learn it, even with my stronger involvement in learning other languages.
In fact, it makes me happy to try and study a few at the same time. Maybe by the end of this year I really will be better at Korean. That would be cool, that is really my feeling towards it, kind of childish like "Oh how cool~!" (haha)
I am in a really good mood today and also yesterday. I finally finished my reading for the summer assignment, Crime and Punishment. I personally, really loved it! But, I think I might make a seperate blog for it when I begin answering my assesment questions/packet. It is worth writing about, it left an impression on me and was very rich in history. A very stunningly psychological and morbid story, really.
Today I want to do only a few things and it would make me happy to do all of them, if possible.
1. Go work out for a little (Review my Korean and listen to music)
2. Begin reviewing notes and answering the packet for my summer assignment
3. Write something!!
4. Blog
Just very simple things, you know? I want to go excercise for a bit now (I need to get out of the house, I have been stuck inside reading that book the whole week~) It will be nice and relaxing, ease my mind a little too..
Besides my goals for today and the more academic focus, I have been following very closely what is happening with TVXQ. Ahh..it is a little worrisome, I wont lie. I have read all kinds of articles and of course, even from just common sense, whether they win or lose they are going to suffer in some kind of way. SM entertainment has quite an influence and the expected sum of money the boys would have to pay if they lose..is..pheonominal. It is truly unfair.
Everyone just has to pray that everything will work out and that they know what they are doing. Win or lose, I am more concerned about what is best for them in terms of health and prosperity.
So, this is another topic that defenitely deserves the title "~~~hwaitinnnnggg~!" Besides the negative clouds that have been surrounding them, a lot of english subbed, AADBSK 3 clips have been floating around the internet.
They are so incredibly funny too! Last night I laughed while watching many of them. They are worth a post alone, so again I might wait to make a better post then just drone on after my own personal life (haha)
In short, I just wanted to write something because I have thought of so many things I would like to blog about lately. Serious to not so serious things. Writing all of this out though, I think I, even though it doesn't appear that way, organized some of my thoughts for future blogs.
No surprise right? (laugh) In everyday life you can see things that remind you of 東方神起 everywhere (if you don't already live in Japan and have constant reminders)
There was also some discussion about college too. It actually made my mind feel a little less heavy. I have been worried about that and very thoughtful. Truthfully, I feel a little more relaxed now. What would you say to me going to college in Miami, Shou?
Maybe it wont work out and maybe it is not for me, but I won't know until I get a chance to experience it. Kudos to Wrenn for bringing it up, because I had thought about it before but shot it down. I don't think my mom is to keen about the idea but the college offers a very extensive Japanese program as well as a realistic entrace exam score.
It is nice to think that maybe I have some kind of set plan instead of scrambling in the dark. We will have to wait and see though. It makes me excited thinking about it though. Just one more step closer to living the way that I want too, accomplishing what I want to.
Tonight I am just going to relax. I had a lot of food at the mall but it was so good and at a decent price! I am a little tired at the moment and thinking about beginning that book again tomorrow. It will be a pain but it has to be done and I know it will benefit me (other than just because it's mandatory)
I am up so early today then I have been! It is actually a really nice feeling.
I am about to go get ready for shopping today. My sister, Wrenn and I are going to hit a few stores today. I am happy for it, we need to find some new clothing. I think all of us have changed sizes in clothing since last year. Plus, when we shop together we can be more relaxed because we don't judge each other's choices or style. We have the same thoughts (for the most part).
I think it will be a nice day though. Just lots of hanging out and hopefully getting some good deals.
In the back of my mind, I also hope that Shou feels better too! (Your health worries me love)
Oh and it seems like a lot of fans are distraught this morning after watching the couple talk between these two. The rough translations were a little dull but still still cute none the less. They seem to be very defensive about their sexuality though (laugh) makes you wonder what exactly they are thinking. Regardless, the talk seems very scripted and they seem uncomfortable with each other. So many changes have happened to the whole band within the past two years they weren't active. I still think they have a lot of love though *shrugs*
I would say they "are both so grown up" but the other clips from the DVD says otherwise (laugh)
「Type O people are outgoing, expressive, and passionate.
They are highly motivated, natural leaders.
Blessed with a strong physical presence, they aren’t afraid to gamble because they are so convinced they’ll win.
Type O Blood people are said to set the mood for a group and to take on the role of creating harmony among its members.
Their image is one of being peaceful and carefree. They are also thought to be big-hearted and benevolent, and they tend to spend money on others generously.
They are natural athletes.
They tend to be obsessive in their quest for success, and this can make them boring to others.
Type O’s are outgoing, and very social.
They are initiators, although they don’t always finish what they start. They appear to be levelheaded and trustworthy, but they often slip and make big blunders inadvertently.
That is also the what makes O Types lovable.
Creative and popular, they love to be the center of attention and appear very self confident.
Type 0 personalities can be carefree, generous, independent, flexible, idealistic, goal-oriented, athletic, competitive, and adaptable. They can also be clumsy, flighty, jealous, greedy, unreliable, obsessive lover, vain loudmouths. 」
Type O – Trendsetting, passionate, vain, self-confident, loyal.
まじで? Hmm..there is a lot of good and a lot of bad remarks here too (laugh) Some traits seem to relate to me and some not.
But, atleast I learned the word for "blood type," ketsu eki gata" (けつえきがた)
This English-subtitled edition of All About Dong Bang Shin Ki Season 3 comes in a boxset with a 60-page photobook, rolled poster (shipped in protective tube), and 6 DVDs containing the following:
Disc 1 - TVXQ's Saipan Story TVXQ's Special Holiday in Saipan
Special Stage Purple Line - 9/28/08 Inkigayo - Comeback Special- 10/05/08 Inkigayo - Mirotic- 10/12/08 Inkigayo - Mirotic & Mutizen Song Award 1- 10/19/08 Inkigayo - Mirotic & Mutizen Song Award 2- 10/26/08 Inkigayo - Mirotic & Mutizen Song Award 3- 11/30/08 Inkigayo - Wrong Number- 12/07/08 Inkigayo - Wrong Number- 12/30/08 Gayo Daejun - Mirotic, Wrong Number
Disc 5 - Making Film Theater Drama Vacation TVXQ and Member Stories Purple Line MV Sketch & Special Stage Behind Story Special Fan Meeting "4862 Scandal" Mirotic Jacket/MV Sketches & 1st Stage Behind Story TVXQ Fall Mini Concert Press Conference Wrong Number MV Sketch Special Fan Meeting "You're My Flower Lady" All About TVXQ Season 3 - Holiday In Saipan Diary All About TVXQ Season 3 - Jacket Sketch All About TVXQ Season 3 - Picture of You Exclusive MV Sketch All About TVXQ Season 3 - Saipan Coconut Secret Story The 3rd Asia Tour Concert - O Poster Photo Sketch Yamaha Promotion: 2009 Bangkok Motor Show
Disc 6 - Show: SBS-TV Entertainment Program Collection 2/23/08 Line Up 3/2/08 Miraculous Victory & Defeat - Max, Xiah, U-Know 9/21/08 TVXQ Fall Mini Concert (Rising Sun, Hey!(Don’t Bring Me Down), Love In The Ice, Mirotic) 10/2/08 Kim Jung Eun's Chocolate No Cut Story
I am really happy about them. Especially having a foreign language class again. This year will be tough, but it is so exciting. We seemed to wait for forever to get our schedules though. I ran into a few people from previous classes and we spoke briefly about our AP exams. It was nice. My sister and I also spoke about Buddhism too.
I just saw you Beyond the course of time A room that we once shared But my memory's a haze Forgetting what was said
I gently held out my hand
And in that perfect moment
You disappeared - I lost you over again
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you Just how I remembered Brimming with tenderness And somewhere in the calm A feeling that nothing had ever changed Your presence close beside me till I wake
I just saw you
A moment far too brief
Before the daylight came
But my heart is beating fast
Perhaps we'll meet again
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you Just how I remembered Brimming with tenderness And somewhere in the calm A feeling that nothing had ever changed Your presence close beside me till I wake
I see you - until I wake from shallow sleep
An artist without a brush Can't paint upon the canvas Without you here - there is no colour A colourless landscape
In a shallow sleep
I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake
I see you - shallow sleep
*I really adore this song. I guess that Hyde might be considered a little "old school" now ne? He has such great music though. I have always really liked this song though. The feeling is something that I can really relate too at the moment.
After so many rumours of disbandment caused from the lawsuit against SM's "slave contract" many fans, including myself, have found it comforting at how much the members care for each other. How much, they care about the band and their fans feelings as well.
ジェチュ have even gotten the same tattoo which is across their heart with the words that all fans have been repeating excessively through all of this mess "Always Keep the Faith" almost a symbol of the bands influence upon it's united fans.
There is not any clear fotos out yet of ジェジュン but it is still clearly the same tattoo.
ユチョン is also sporting a necklace which repeats the words "Always Keep the Faith"
ジュンス shares the same necklace.
As for the other two members, they are not quite as visible with these symbols of faith but that should not make a difference. Quite a few fans are finding it to be disheartening, particularly because the other two are still remaining under the SM label. Thankfully, it seems that there are no quarrels between the members and all five feel that the contract is unfair, just the way they are handling it is different
Many international and domestic fan projects to support the band have begun. Encouraging messages from all over the world, stressing that "without all 5 there is nothing."
Brief messages and banners are displayed on personal blogs and TVXQ forums:
5+1= 0/5-1=0
This type of message also appeared around the time of possible replacement of two of the members; ジェジュンとジュンス
It is clearly evident from personal statements and all of the hard work that the band has put into their current status, that they will not be disbanding. Only trying to fix a contract that has left them exhuasted with unfair treatment.
私は宿題する必要があります~
お早うございます!
ユチュンのヘアスタイルは迚も可愛い！ 
ジェジュンの声が 素敵です
でも, 眠れません。
まじで? Hmm..there is a lot of good and a lot of bad remarks here too (laugh) Some traits seem to relate to me and some not. 
