「Life Keeps Spinnin'」★
POSTED ON: 2014年4月7日月曜日 @ 14:43 | 2 comments
I haven't blogged in an extremely long time. Last semester? I think it has seriously been a long time and in these months, a lot has happened.
I guess I'll have to rewind everything a bit first.
Winter Break turned into a trip to Maryland with my dad to pick up my aunt's old car that she sold me for a great price. It's stick, so I still have to learn to drive it, in fact!
Over Winter Break there was some foreshadowing of things to come with my current ex-boyfriend. Things had felt weird for awhile. I was upset a lot, he was quite distant and there were often things that felt off. I swallowed it all down, he promised to make things better and I told him he had to or I needed to leave the relationship.
New Year's Eve turned out happier and more exciting than I could have imagined. I got my nails done and bought a new red dress for it. My sister, her boyfriend and my ex ended up meeting at this local bar near my house. Derek's mother's boyfriend was part of the live band playing and it was a lot of fun.
I hadn't seen my ex in awhile and it really felt wonderful to see him. The night was really great and the best New Year's Eve I've had to date.
Fast forward a little bit now..
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I began my first semester tutoring writing and I really enjoy it. Even on days when I'm tired or slightly upset, tutoring picks up my mood. It is another reason why I still want to pursue teaching.
This semester has flown by so quickly! In fact, there are only three weeks left of the semester. It's been eventful and I got to do a lot of things with friends. I spent more time with my Ex than I ever had and had a very romantic Valentine's Day.
My five classes have been going pretty smoothly. I learned about different beers and got a taste for whiskey that I didn't know I had.
I shared coffee and wine with my friends. I've read quite a few interesting novels and done well on all of my exams.
I also, however, got my heart broken pretty badly. All my suspicions and gut feelings were true. Despite the many times I tried to get my ex to talk with me about what was going on, he continued to lie to me.
It was an extremely necessary but painful thing to happen. I've spent a year trying really hard to make things work between us. Now, it's a complicated situation. If this was a Korean drama, I'd take my revenge and make him feel all the pain he's made me feel (then I'd probably get with his loyal and attractive best friend who was there the whole time but I somehow never noticed).
I got used to his indifference and it's made the healing process a lot easier. I think I've taken two things, especially, from this relationship:
1. Feelings aren't black and white, neither is the way that you should react after a break up
2. Trust your instincts and walk away when they tell you to
Overall, I'm doing just fine and I'll be fine. One of the positive sides to everything is my lack of appetite lately. How is that positive do you say?
As my mom has always told me:
"well, at least you'll lose a little weight after a break up."
That's actually a terrible thing to say but it's kinda funny and she's kinda right.
I always felt like I was playing with fire before but now I feel like I'm playing with a dying flame. It doesn't hurt nearly as much when it tries to burn me now and inevitably it will fade.
Over the weekend I saw
The Grand Budapest Hotel. It was excellent and artistic.
Today and tomorrow are going to take away tiny pieces of my soul but they will be productive!
Yesterday, I worked on my AML essay with Wrenn and Jennifer. In the evening, Jennifer and I went to Dunkin Donuts to just ramble on about life.
It was really nice and comforting too. I want to be cool like plastic about everything. I want to remember the stuff that made me happy before I threw all my energy into a relationship.
So, what's the agenda?
Today : Advising appointment at 15:30 to decide my fate. Do I have to return to FIU or can I take my final two classes at UCF in the Fall? Finishing my 5-page paper
Tuesday : 5-page draft due for my AML class! Dinner or a movie with a friend afterwards?
Later : Lots of reading and magic rituals so I do well on my INR exam this weekend.
Blogging is one of those things that made me quite happy. Expect more posts and happier updates!
ラベル: 2014, coffee, Exams, friends, homework, life, relationships, tutoring, university, work
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So, you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
You learn that you really can endure,
that you really are strong, and you really do have worth.
You learn and learn, with every goodbye you learn.
Scream your name
Your thoughts, and your cries. Be nice.
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「Life Keeps Spinnin'」★
POSTED ON: 2014年4月7日月曜日 @ 14:43 | 2 comments
I haven't blogged in an extremely long time. Last semester? I think it has seriously been a long time and in these months, a lot has happened.
I guess I'll have to rewind everything a bit first.
Winter Break turned into a trip to Maryland with my dad to pick up my aunt's old car that she sold me for a great price. It's stick, so I still have to learn to drive it, in fact!
Over Winter Break there was some foreshadowing of things to come with my current ex-boyfriend. Things had felt weird for awhile. I was upset a lot, he was quite distant and there were often things that felt off. I swallowed it all down, he promised to make things better and I told him he had to or I needed to leave the relationship.
New Year's Eve turned out happier and more exciting than I could have imagined. I got my nails done and bought a new red dress for it. My sister, her boyfriend and my ex ended up meeting at this local bar near my house. Derek's mother's boyfriend was part of the live band playing and it was a lot of fun.
I hadn't seen my ex in awhile and it really felt wonderful to see him. The night was really great and the best New Year's Eve I've had to date.
Fast forward a little bit now..
I began my first semester tutoring writing and I really enjoy it. Even on days when I'm tired or slightly upset, tutoring picks up my mood. It is another reason why I still want to pursue teaching.
This semester has flown by so quickly! In fact, there are only three weeks left of the semester. It's been eventful and I got to do a lot of things with friends. I spent more time with my Ex than I ever had and had a very romantic Valentine's Day.
My five classes have been going pretty smoothly. I learned about different beers and got a taste for whiskey that I didn't know I had.
I shared coffee and wine with my friends. I've read quite a few interesting novels and done well on all of my exams.
I also, however, got my heart broken pretty badly. All my suspicions and gut feelings were true. Despite the many times I tried to get my ex to talk with me about what was going on, he continued to lie to me.
It was an extremely necessary but painful thing to happen. I've spent a year trying really hard to make things work between us. Now, it's a complicated situation. If this was a Korean drama, I'd take my revenge and make him feel all the pain he's made me feel (then I'd probably get with his loyal and attractive best friend who was there the whole time but I somehow never noticed).
I got used to his indifference and it's made the healing process a lot easier. I think I've taken two things, especially, from this relationship:
1. Feelings aren't black and white, neither is the way that you should react after a break up
2. Trust your instincts and walk away when they tell you to
Overall, I'm doing just fine and I'll be fine. One of the positive sides to everything is my lack of appetite lately. How is that positive do you say?
As my mom has always told me:
"well, at least you'll lose a little weight after a break up."
That's actually a terrible thing to say but it's kinda funny and she's kinda right.
I always felt like I was playing with fire before but now I feel like I'm playing with a dying flame. It doesn't hurt nearly as much when it tries to burn me now and inevitably it will fade.
Over the weekend I saw
The Grand Budapest Hotel. It was excellent and artistic.
Today and tomorrow are going to take away tiny pieces of my soul but they will be productive!
Yesterday, I worked on my AML essay with Wrenn and Jennifer. In the evening, Jennifer and I went to Dunkin Donuts to just ramble on about life.
It was really nice and comforting too. I want to be cool like plastic about everything. I want to remember the stuff that made me happy before I threw all my energy into a relationship.
So, what's the agenda?
Today : Advising appointment at 15:30 to decide my fate. Do I have to return to FIU or can I take my final two classes at UCF in the Fall? Finishing my 5-page paper
Tuesday : 5-page draft due for my AML class! Dinner or a movie with a friend afterwards?
Later : Lots of reading and magic rituals so I do well on my INR exam this weekend.
Blogging is one of those things that made me quite happy. Expect more posts and happier updates!
ラベル: 2014, coffee, Exams, friends, homework, life, relationships, tutoring, university, work
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