Coming down to the last few days..
POSTED ON: 2012年4月23日月曜日 @ 22:32 | 1 comments
こんばんは～ （＾ ＾）／
お久しぶりね！
This past weekend gave me so many things to think about it.
「金曜日」
I decided to go to my Ex's party on Friday night with my sister, roommate and a bunch of friends. I originally wasn't invited and didn't intend to go. It didn't bother me that I wasn't invited, because since everything, he hasn't been on good terms with me at all.
Towards the end of the week last weekend he invited me. I still decided against it but I slowly changed my mind.
Against my better judgement I went. The first half of the night was really good. Overall it was a successful house party. He has a really big beautiful house so I felt worried for him for that.
There was plenty to drink and at least fifty or so people. I mingled, made drinks and overall just hung out with my friends.
Towards the second part of the night everyone acted on emotions. Too much alcohol, some unexpected things.
If I had to say, I am probably in the 20th circle of hell with a couple people right now.
I have so many things on my mind too lately that it has been hard to focus or to sleep properly.
I want to study abroad but thinking of these basic things that are bothering me, I can't even imagine going off to study abroad.
Maybe I need to make a list of all the things that are bothering me lately.
I don't know but my mind has been so heavy.
So, Saturday I rested because Friday I had eaten little, donated blood and went to the party. I was so dehydrated.
Sunday I met up with my friend Jacqi who helped me buy my first SLR camera. We went out to eat and then we worked on the camera a little. It appears that the shutter is already shot and I pretty much got a deal too good to be true.
She is vacationing for a little over the summer but when she gets back she is going to help me sell the camera and get my money back. So, I am relieved that we found out the problem and at the same time very disappointed because my digital camera finally broke too.
I am not used to being without a camera..
Sunday overall was pretty good. In the evening my friends and I went to IHOP to celebrate a friend's birthday.
It was overall pretty fun though even though my mind was up in the clouds through a lot of it.
There is some stuff I just can't forget. I am fighting a little with myself on a couple things right now.
To backtrack a little, on Thursday night my roommate and I went shopping a little. I had forgotten my card and didn't end up buying anything anyways. Although these dresses were pretty, I just tried them on. Apparently this color is really in right now!
Lately my roommate and I have been spending a lot of time together. In fact, we have been exercising a lot more together. Our general routine has become running up one of the parking garages of the school and then running down.
Last night we went with a friend and incorporated running up the stairs, squats and crab walk. It was very tiring but very good too!
On Wednesday I have my Japanese exam so I will probably start studying for that soon. Then Friday I have my last two exams and we are leaving for home.
What am I expecting from the next couple days?
I am not really sure...
Maybe, just peace of mind.
- Contentment that I did my best on exams
- Contentment with my personal relationships
- Contentment with money (securing a job)
- Contentment with my families problems situations (try to help and sort out things)
I of all people know that peace of mind isn't found within another person or a circumstance so I really just need to focus my mind.
I feel like I have become too busy minded.
While I really wish and desire certain things will happen, they wont.
I need to stop caring and putting energy into things that don't matter.
Maybe of my basic but biggest problems right now. Ah, don't want to belabor it though!
I need to start studying for Japanese!
ラベル: Exams, life, party, relationships, spring semester, studies, thoughts, 考え, 試験, 春休み, 勉強
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You learn that you really can endure,
that you really are strong, and you really do have worth.
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Coming down to the last few days..
POSTED ON: 2012年4月23日月曜日 @ 22:32 | 1 comments
こんばんは～ （＾ ＾）／
お久しぶりね！
This past weekend gave me so many things to think about it.
「金曜日」
I decided to go to my Ex's party on Friday night with my sister, roommate and a bunch of friends. I originally wasn't invited and didn't intend to go. It didn't bother me that I wasn't invited, because since everything, he hasn't been on good terms with me at all.
Towards the end of the week last weekend he invited me. I still decided against it but I slowly changed my mind.
Against my better judgement I went. The first half of the night was really good. Overall it was a successful house party. He has a really big beautiful house so I felt worried for him for that.
There was plenty to drink and at least fifty or so people. I mingled, made drinks and overall just hung out with my friends.
Towards the second part of the night everyone acted on emotions. Too much alcohol, some unexpected things.
If I had to say, I am probably in the 20th circle of hell with a couple people right now.
I have so many things on my mind too lately that it has been hard to focus or to sleep properly.
I want to study abroad but thinking of these basic things that are bothering me, I can't even imagine going off to study abroad.
Maybe I need to make a list of all the things that are bothering me lately.
I don't know but my mind has been so heavy.
So, Saturday I rested because Friday I had eaten little, donated blood and went to the party. I was so dehydrated.
Sunday I met up with my friend Jacqi who helped me buy my first SLR camera. We went out to eat and then we worked on the camera a little. It appears that the shutter is already shot and I pretty much got a deal too good to be true.
She is vacationing for a little over the summer but when she gets back she is going to help me sell the camera and get my money back. So, I am relieved that we found out the problem and at the same time very disappointed because my digital camera finally broke too.
I am not used to being without a camera..
Sunday overall was pretty good. In the evening my friends and I went to IHOP to celebrate a friend's birthday.
It was overall pretty fun though even though my mind was up in the clouds through a lot of it.
There is some stuff I just can't forget. I am fighting a little with myself on a couple things right now.
To backtrack a little, on Thursday night my roommate and I went shopping a little. I had forgotten my card and didn't end up buying anything anyways. Although these dresses were pretty, I just tried them on. Apparently this color is really in right now!
Lately my roommate and I have been spending a lot of time together. In fact, we have been exercising a lot more together. Our general routine has become running up one of the parking garages of the school and then running down.
Last night we went with a friend and incorporated running up the stairs, squats and crab walk. It was very tiring but very good too!
On Wednesday I have my Japanese exam so I will probably start studying for that soon. Then Friday I have my last two exams and we are leaving for home.
What am I expecting from the next couple days?
I am not really sure...
Maybe, just peace of mind.
- Contentment that I did my best on exams
- Contentment with my personal relationships
- Contentment with money (securing a job)
- Contentment with my families problems situations (try to help and sort out things)
I of all people know that peace of mind isn't found within another person or a circumstance so I really just need to focus my mind.
I feel like I have become too busy minded.
While I really wish and desire certain things will happen, they wont.
I need to stop caring and putting energy into things that don't matter.
Maybe of my basic but biggest problems right now. Ah, don't want to belabor it though!
I need to start studying for Japanese!
ラベル: Exams, life, party, relationships, spring semester, studies, thoughts, 考え, 試験, 春休み, 勉強
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