So much happened this weekend!

Really, I think in my mind I haven't returned to Miami although my body is here!

Where do I start? The drive back home was really long! Originally, my friends and I intended on getting a hotel in Orlando near the convention center.

In the end however, one of my friends stayed in Orlando to visit family and the others came back home with us for the night.

We left around 14:00 Friday afternoon and arrived around 18:30.

It was such a long drive!

I was really happy to see my mom and all weekend she was cooking for us. I think my friends got a great impression of her and vice a versa. 

Key left Friday night to see her mom and the rest of us prepared for the convention on Saturday morning.

I was so wiped out by that night but we were all excited about it.

The guys had decided to stay at the Hilton near the convention center and were talking about drinking after the convention later Saturday night. Sounded pretty good and of course that sparked lots of conversation.

In my mind I was worried about two things:

1. Doing something too straightforward (好きな人がいったから）

2. My ex feeling awkward around me

So, after making a run to Walmart, dying our hair, doing facials, straightening our hair and gossiping like hens, we all passed out.

We didn't end up leaving until Saturday afternoon, around 14:00 or so after quite a bit of debate.

Basically, talk like that.

The drive to Orlando was another hour and a half or so. The traffic was pretty bad.

We had to park a little bit from the convention center and once we got near there were so many people walking around with costumes!

It was very interesting!

So, we didn't buy tickets and get in until about 17:00. We met up with Key and also my ex. Surprisingly everything went well and nothing was awkward. アンドレスはたくさん飲みすぎましたから。

We looked around the dealers room and honestly that was enough for me before I wanted to leave. It was so incredibly crowded! So many people and so much loud noise.

When we reached Andres, Key and I split off for awhile.

During this time we both spoke a little.

アンドレスは、好きな人はEXのりょうに行ったって。







I wasn't angry or irritated, not even surprised! My feeling was slightly sad but I didn't feel as much as I thought I would about it.

The girls were hungry so we took a walk over to Dick's house. Any time is good for Dick's house!

Around this time is when I realized how badly my feet were getting cut by my new shoes. The walk was about a mile but it felt like forever because of the shoes.

We ate, talked and then met up with Andres after.

The tickets for the rave would be available at seven so the plan was to take the drinks back to the room, getting changed and then go.

In reality however, we went back to the room and ended up changing, drinking a bit and talking a lot.

We met some more of Hamza's friends and they were all pretty cool. We chatted and eventually all the guys came back from the pool. They took a thousand years to get ready.

Some of them took a few shots (we were close enough to the con to walk) and others sipped on some beers.

The walk there everyone loosened up. I was originally not in the mood to go to the rave but I reconsidered and am very glad that I did.

During this time both Jennifer and I were gossiping a lot. カイルはちょうかっこいい！

「すごい！かっこいい！」

「Big Bang スタイル見たいね！」

「チョアヘヨ！」

My sister seemed to talk with him the most though which was really fun!

When we got there the limit had been reached of who can enter. We almost all got split up but at the last moment we got inside. Hamza saw a door where people were coming out and we sort of snuck in.

I highly doubt the cops were going to suddenly bust out from nowhere but it still probably wasn't right!

So, once inside we stuck together as a group only for a little bit. We danced around each other for a little until Jennifer brought my attention to this really cute guy who was dancing alone.

I was really shocked and couldn't understand why. My sister and other friends noticed too. She kept pushing me towards him until finally I just decided to go up to him.

"You are so cute, it's a shame you are dancing alone."

"Want to dance?"

Alcohol obviously brings out a much more confident me because I would have never done that in another situation!

I was really happy I did however. He was tall, built nice and danced extremely well!

I was very surprised.

Most of the music was techno and I really didn't know how to dance like that so I just did what I was familiar with...club type dancing.

He followed along nicely and we danced together the rest of the time.

During this time I locked eyes with a couple of my friends (some of my guy friends gave me the thumbs up)

It was really pleasant. About thirty minutes before it ended we went to get water and sit down.

We talked a little and he was really chill. He is a little young (again), lives in Orlando, wants to study nursing, likes R & B, plays guitar, is afraid of heights and is Filipino.

Yep, that is what I learned while we chatted casually!

So, the rave ended pretty early. We walked out together and went looking for our friends. By this time we had all split up.

I wanted to sit and talk with him more to be honest. My friends waited a couple more minutes for me before we would walk back to the hotel. He was about to leave soon anyways.

We sat down and talked a bit more. Eventually he ran into his friend and had to leave.

I asked for a kiss before he left and was pleasant surprised that he was also a great kisser!


For the second time during the day we all went to Denny's. I only got coffee this time but the whole time was really entertaining.

I really like Hamza's friends. All of the girls had stories to tell but we were all waiting for the car ride back.

We sat and chatted in Denny's until pretty late.

We went back to the hotel for only a short time before I drove us home, it was around four in the morning.




When we got back we were all chatting before going to bed.

I was so exhausted. Sunday went by too quickly and we didn't arrive back in Miami until about 22:30 that night.

Overall? It was really fun! I needed a change of scene really badly. Until I reflected on it today, I didn't realize how much I had on my mind before heading home.

It was great getting to see my mom and having home cooked meals.

It was really wonderful seeing all of my friends letting loose and having so much fun too.

I met a real sweetheart too. I am going to try and keep in touch with him, so we will see what happens.

Everyone keeps asking for a picture so without one the best way I can describe him is he reminds me a bit like Daesung in the face.

He is super cute!

As far as other things go, well, I am torn about it. Happy for him and sad for him. I know how painful it was leaving the person I cared a lot about so often for months at a time.

It is so tough. He plays really cool about it but I know he must be hurting so much.

Yesterday I felt like I took in a slight wave of sadness from it. Maybe it is better to say that I felt like I could feel that pain I had before again. The pain of separation. It is really tough. I really feel for him, because it's painful.

As for my feelings? I guess it makes things a little easier for me because there is no ambiguities anymore. I just hope he finds happiness.

Yesterday I felt exhausted and still in Orlando. Today I must focus and work harder.

I have so many things on my mind but if I focus everything will work out.