ひさしぶりね！

It has been a little while since the last time I wrote. 

Maybe a week?

A lot has happened in the past week or two! Lots of good things though.

① Found some part time work through my friend  

② Spent the weekend with my stepmom

③ Had a sleep over 

④ Watched a horror movie with my sis!

My weekends have been a little full and that honestly makes me happy. I am the type of person who doesn't get bored easily but does become restless. Lately I have had the urge to be out and about instead of inside all day.

As mentioned above, I now have some part time work on Saturday mornings. It is cleaning condos and last time we cleaned 7!! I was in charge of the bathrooms mostly (each Condo has three bathrooms). 21 bathrooms!! 

The lady that we work for is really sweet though. She is very hyper and very little too.

She invited us to come back and work again tomorrow. I feel really fortunate for it and I am looking forward to it tomorrow morning. 

Recently I also spent some time watching a scary movie with my sister. It is a little old now but is called "Insidious."


Hmm...it was a really strange movie. I don't really know what to think of how I felt about it. I guess I would recommend it because the ending was really cool and unpredictable.

This past weekend I went to my dad's house before he had to leave to take some classes. He actually just finished yesterday and now is a certified Insurance Adjuster


I know my sister and I are really proud of him! He was worried about it a little but because it is formal classes with heavy computer components. I knew he would do great though!

On Sunday I went with my Stepmom and him to help pick out some nice clothes for the trip. It lasted almost all day then we sent him off.

Afterwards the plan was to go eat and meet my sister at the bookstore. My sister was with a friend so my stepmom and I went out to eat together.

We spoke a lot and about all different kind of topics. Lunch was really good and I was glad to let her speak her mind a little. After the conversation she told me "I feel kind of bad for saying all this but I never get to talk to anyone."

How could I deny listening then? 

The waiter also gave my his number  Which surprised the hell out of me! Maybe that is an understatement because lately I have been almost fixed up three times with people.

The world is working backwards it seems. I am really not thinking about relationships now. 

Later we went to Barnes and Noble and just enjoyed reading a little. It was really pleasant. The next morning I went with her to meet her mom and sister-in-law for lunch.

We went to a Middle Eastern place and the food was very interesting. I have never tried it before so the flavors were very different for me. It was good though.

I listened to my stepmom's mom tell jokes and stories. She is so precious and the way she tells stories makes it hard not to listen.

My Alter with new Lotus Candle


Monday night my sister and I came back home. I treated us to a sushi dinner at a place that we have often driven past.  The sushi was great!

On Wednesday my friend came over and we went out shopping a little. Again, I didn't find any clothes. The more we started talking, the more we both were thinking about food. I had gone to the gym that morning and was really hungry.

We went to a couple places and ended by going to the small Korean market near my house.
 We bought:

떡볶이 Korean spicy Rice Cake


호떡 Korean sweet pancake


焼きそば (Ingredients to make it)


The man at the grocer is also always really nice too!!


My friend spent the night and I began making the 焼きそば. It turned out really nicely! Next we prepared the Korean spicy rice cake.


The packets that came with the rice cake smelled really strong so we weren't sure what to think. The meal was really nice though! The rice cakes were really spicy!! It was kind of unbearable to be honest 


Yesterday she went home after we woke up from a coma. We slept pretty much all day (I was particularly exhausted because I hadn't slept the night before)


When I got back home I was feeling hungry because I hadn't eaten yet. I made the sweet rice cakes. 










They were really delicious!! The rest of the night I listened to music and just browsed the internet.



Today has also been a little lazy too. It is raining really badly here so I have been inside all day. I had some plans to go out but now I don't feel like doing too much. 


My sinuses have been a little bad lately so today I had some spicy noodles. 






Right now in my mind it's maybe a little impossible to ignore two people. One I am trying to completely let go of, the other I feel at a stand still. It really bothers me, both situations because I know what to do but am having a hard time doing it.


Even now the first person ceases to amaze me. The second person I feel like giving up on those feelings. It honestly doesn't bother me to do that. I think I have even come to peace with it, but no emails, no messages, no signs of what to do.


Aigo, you shouldn't make people who care about you hurt even a small amount. 


I need to think about it some more. At the moment I don't feel hopeful or interested in any kind of a relationship that's not platonic.