Tonight I feel a little surprised and content. The past two days, my thinking has changed a lot.

I've had trouble with my feelings lately and I think that I am finally finding some peace.

I feel optimistic and ready for change. I need to start focusing on me and what is to come.

I'll fall in love again and with someone who really loves me too. It will be nice and quite a change!



As for now, my last day of finals and school work for high school was today! It's a feeling of relief but it still hasn't sunk in yet.

I had a great day. Hung out with れん afterwards and then came home to pack for my dad's house.

We went out to eat and then I ended up talking with my stepmom for a long time.

She's helped me a lot too. She's happy that I'm not being held back anymore. Tonight I deleted a lot of old blogs. I hate deleting my own writing, I really do, but, I also didn't want to leave that crap up. It has no meaning anymore and it feels almost disturbing after reading about how quite public her relationship is now.

I'm not condemning it, I'm not saying any opinion, I just don't feel it's right to keep forgotten feelings spread all over the internet.

If it weren't for the fact that there is wonderful memories in some of my previous posts, I would delete them all and start fresh. I have too many language and music related posts to want to delete them though. It's not just our memories, it's mostly mine, in fact.

So, this week, starts a new week without high school.

I want to:

Study language

Exercise and Diet

Get more in touch spiritually

Prepare for University

These are my goals and thoughts recently. I want to become a better me, and I can't think of anything more important right now than focusing on the present.

Let's do it~