Everything is changing. Reading through old blogs, it's amazing how many changes have happened in the past month. Has it been that long yet?

Reading through things...I can't say that my heart doesn't sink into my chest painfully. It does and I wonder how long it will hurt like this. I do feel optimistic though, I feel ready and happy but it's still tough.

My weekend was really nice.

On Friday my sister and best friend went to prom. I came home early from school and slept a lot. I took photos of them both in their dresses, they looked very cute.

I spent Friday night cleaning and listening to music. It was very productive and pleasant.

Saturday I had made plans with れん since her birthday is on Wednesday. We went to a Japanese steakhouse in the afternoon and shopped around a little bit. It was lots of fun, we just talked and window shopped.

That night I went over to her house and we were up until super late. We jogged, went swimming and then talked and looked at photos of TOP and 三浦くん. ♥

She really loves TOP and I adore 三浦くん. とてもかっこいいだよ♥
He's a brilliant actor too.

三浦くん is the boy in the photo here and as my banner. (Maybe not boy anymore, he just turned 20!)

On Sunday we hung out a lot too. We both dressed up and went to the mall. I had bought some fake nails to allow my own nails to grow, but they didn't last very long! (笑) They fell off when I washed my hands...

I enjoyed being out though. It was nice and we listened to a lot of great songs in the car. Again, we talked a lot, like we have been lately. It's nice though, because we are both going through similar changes, minus the bad break up on her part.

Last night I slept almost all night. Getting to bed was difficult. Sometimes I get hit with thoughts at night and honestly I just want them to leave me the hell alone. ほっといて！ However, I don't think my thoughts will listen sometimes.

Today I stayed home from school and cleaned. I finished all of my Chinese assignments too. I feel restless though still. I also feel a little lightheaded, but I think that is from feeling restless...maybe nervousness when I think of all the things to come in the next month.

This morning I also got a twitter, because my sister got one and I thought, why not? Maybe I will make some new friends~

Is anyone else keeping up with ジェジュンの新しいドラマ？I think I should maybe make a second post for it. It's so good! All of the characters are very well developed! The plot is very interesting too. I watched the second episode this morning.