Today is another day down. It is already 22.02~

Lately, I've been really tortured by my thoughts. It's not getting any better and it's between a feeling of numbness and being painful. It is far from making me feel happy..and instead of just at night, I have these thoughts throughout the day.

They are comparable to a migraine headache. I have so many unanswered questions and feelings. I wish that...I could just shake her shoulders and scream at her. Do you see how hard this is for me? Do you not care? I'll never understand people and their insincerity. I run these scenarios and memories over and over again in my mind, like they make a difference...but I know they do not.

I just have to wait for more time to go by, make new memories to replace the old. It's just...I don't know why they have been attacking me lately.

On another note, I exercised today. It felt really nice and I cleaned quite a bit too. I have been in the mood to write something and I read something really good today. Should I write soon?



Tomorrow is a French exam and a written response after school.

がんばりますね~